Nedsel Eoh.

valentine's day!

2011-02-13T19:01:00.004+08:00

Its the time of the year again.... Valentine's day!!!

First and fore most, to wish all singles a happy valentine's day, you all lonely people like me get my love...

To all attached, make something nice for your other half.. and have a great romantic get away.

And to all attached for less than 1 year.. CONGRATS on your first valentines!

Well... To all my really good friends/ best friends, I made you guys something!

Hope that you guys like the card that I made... heh! ;D

To the one I will really think about:
No matter where you are, no matter what you do, I just hope to be there for you.

To be next to you overcoming all the tides and waves together...

No matter how strong the current or wind is, I'll be here for you.
I'll wait for you...

Its the new year..

2011-01-05T11:30:00.006+08:00

Its 2011!!!!

and I am back to blog... I'm trying so hard to keep blogging its so tough... NO TIME! =X

Well, the very first thing which I wanna talk about would be....

REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC OPEN HOUSE 2011!!!!!

Honestly, this year is gonna be so different as compared to the previous years cause of all the set ups like School Of Hospitality's Cruise Ship right smack in the from of the school and School of Health and Leisure's Rock wall fixture!!! :DD Sounds like fun eh!?

There will be goodie bags and many things to check out!

Come on down to RP to check it out if you happen to see my blog!!!

And if you do, Remember to vote for the best Student ambassador around! Check out their names on their badges and VOTE via the feedback form!

For more info, you can check out this website! http://www.rp.sg/openhouse/

Adios and see you there! :D

It has been months.

2010-11-04T22:37:00.005+08:00

It has been months!!!!

So much has actually happened through the months and I really don't know where to start!

Well, I think on of the best parts would be meeting SUB THEME 1, OUR LIFE people in poly forum!!!

Poly forum was really awesome and I did have a hell lota fun! Cause of the people and everything!

This is after the entire poly form the group pic of OUR LIFE!!!!!

RETRO NIGHT!!! I'm some where there!!! SPOT ME! HAHAHAHA

Well, after the poly forum, that was definitely not the end of it all! We did meet up for 2 outings but I only went for 1! and the one I went for was at suntec where we caught a movie together and it was really nice to watch a movie with them, chill out and have dinner at the esplande's roof area...

Had loads of fun disturbing the "couples" HAHAHAHA

Well, I do hope that there will be an outing soon! ;)

Ms. LIM's birthday! *sounds old hor* HAHAHAHA Well, happy 21st gio, and I hope that you had fun on your birthday! ;) with all the guests coming in and everything and I did make new friends! awesome ones! HHAHAHA they are really fun people! ;)

Here we go! the group of friends that I made... "Gio slave warriors! " HAHAHAHA really have fun being around them.. laughing all the time! HAHAHA

Well these are one of the main highlights cause I only have pictures of them..
Others like..
-Special Olympics
-Reflections: Muse III
-Student Council's Bonding Camp
-Meetings
-Meetings
-Meetings..

HAHAHA well I did go for all those and had fun in some of them.. stress in others... well, I'll try to constantly update...

ONE BIG INCIDENT!

Well, Just that day, I saw an accident outside of RP which really made me so shocked..
I was just waiting for the red man to change to the green man and while I stood there, I saw a lady riding a bicycle, making a turn on the road and just rode off into the road.. 1 minute later, I see man on a bicycle just cycling on the road and all of a sudden... *POP!*

A white car came by and knocked the man riding the bicycle down and the man just flew and rolled a couple of times on the floor and he lay there motionless..

My heart skipped several beats as my hand involuntarily was placed on my chest with my breathing getting heavier and heavier. I looked to the left and the right..
On the right was a elderly lady staring at me in shock.. it was like looking in the mirror as the same expressions appeared in front of me.
The expression of: What do I do now? What's going to happen? Is he alright? Will the driver be in trouble? the main question: WILL HE LIVE?!

Sound finally came out of the open mouth of shock. She said: "should we call the police?" *in Chinese* I stared at the phone in my hand and... YES WE SHOULD, I immediately unlocked my phone, and dialed 999. As I was on the phone with the policeman, a very helpful passer by shouted: "CALL THE AMBULANCE" and in stress and frustration (due to constant reapeating of information to the police ) I shouted: "I'M CALLING THE POLICE!!!" and so, they send the ambulance there..

2-3minutes later my savoir came! PC! asking me what as going on and helping me feel more useful in helping the people there to direct the traffic and so on. Soon the ambulance came and took the many away, I soon went off as I had to meet Samuel and Michelle.

That very day, My brain was totally drained and I just kept thinking...

How things just happen so fast.. How he never knew that this would happen to him, but yet. one second is all it took to start flying off your bicycle and roll on the floor and might never see light again.. Who knew the fate of the people?

Who knows whats going to happen next?
This makes me think constantly...

*I hope that the guy on the bicycle is alright... I wish him a speedy recovery..*

A Dam Huge Lesson..

2010-07-07T23:02:00.002+08:00

A Dam Huge Lesson on the 7th Of July 2010.

After today, I just realised something which people have definitely been talking about but have yet to make it real and make it actually happen.
Especially in Singapore..

This has actually caused me so much misery for the past few years that I have lived on with and everything I get upset, it I did apply this lesson, I would have made myself feel so much better.

What I have learnt would be something rather simple: " If you want to give something to someone (time, money, gifts, an act of kindness), what do you expect in return?"

The answer to me should be nothing..
Because this is what we want to give and not what is expected of us, when we do something for someone, it is our own will to make it happen to help them with it and so, if we were to actually do it willingly, why do we ask for anything in return?

Even the simplest of thank you and sorry seems to be a must from people when you do things for them..
True enough, it is basic courtesy to fulfil those little things but as in individual yourself, won't you be expecting something from them? Then why is it that you do it in the first place..

And I have always thought that when I did something, I should get the littlest of things in return but I never did which made me feel like I was juts being used.. But if I thought of it carefully, then it wont be the case cause this is something which I want to do and did do willingly, so why is it that I am so frustrated that the person did not show appreciation to what I did?

And when everyone feel that way, that the things we do are because we want to do it not because we want something in return, wont it be so much better?
When you are willing to hold the door for the next person and have no intention of getting a thank you. But of course when this happens, there should be a probability that people should have the humanity to actually apologise or appreciate what people do for them..

But when we do not get frustrated over issues such as people not giving back in the smallest ways, we would be less frustrated as well as angry with things around us and this might just happen on a daily basis....

I will really try to stick to it and live with it to make myself happier... why want things from people when I did something for them willingly?

Well, that's all I got for now... and I hope that this actually helps those people like me to understand and be happier for themselves... and.. live life for yourself...

Thanks for readin YO!

Where do you want to go?

2010-07-03T17:43:00.002+08:00

Imagine you are 25....

What will you be doing now?
Making your way to a very important meeting which helps you support yourself and your family?
Dressed all nicely, smart and great.. Everything on you is branded and you drive home to your big house by the sea with a magnificent view.
Having the latest technology in your hands... A huge and slim TV, with the latest phone in your hands and the fastest and best computer on the market.
Confidence in the tip of your fingers..

That's the life..

But what if everything you are doing now will lead you to be opposite when you reach 25?

Sitting down the road with nothing in your pockets but coins which can last you for the week.
Wearing a T-shirt with berms that looks old and dirty.
Finding an apartment which you loan for as long as you can pay.

The apartment is located right next to a sewage area with the constant stench going into your place.

No technology which you own.. all of which is one that you have to loan from somewhere.

Being afraid of leaving the house due to fear of constant perceptions from people.

This is when we all realise that we made a mistake..
The little things we accomplish today is what that brings us to where we want to be in the future.
The little things we don't accomplish today is what that cause us to not be able to make it to where we want to be in the future..

The effort we put into what we do shows when the results turns out.
It might not be a good comparison with someone which has a strength in it but everyone will see the effort that we put into the things we do..

Do it right, do it now, what you want in the future is what you do now...

So lazy to talk about everything.

2010-06-27T23:01:00.004+08:00

I AM BACK!!!!
Its been 1 month ++! HAHAHAHA
Well, I can say that I will not really blog about everything in details because I am so darn lazy!!!!

Just Highlights!

1) JIVE WELCOME TEA!

It was... FUNNY!!! HAHAHAHA
Well, I think it was quite alright, we did a not too good or not too bad job.. So.. YEA! =)
Having all the games and jokes around... With Kin Meng forgetting Hellven and I... how sad! HAHAHA
Shall not go much into details but... Had fun! Hope everyone which when had that little bit of fun too! =)

KAYAKING CAMP!

2 Days, 1 Night..
AWESOME!!! HAHAHAH
Total Icebreaking and fun games on the first day + night...
Had all the games like... form the longest chain, road runner and so on! HAHAHA
Forfeits.. banana dance, mass dance, chicken dance...
MOVIE NIGHT! HAHAH
"organisers/ seniors" were so nice to go to NTUC to buy us CHIPS AND DRINKS!!! WOOOO! hahah watched some shows and got to sleep with all the cockroaches!! =X

Early in the morning... 5BX!!!! But the less harsh one! =D
WATER TRAINING!!!!!!!! IN THE POOL! WOOOHOO! HAHAHHAHAHA
FUN!
but i feel so noob to be afriad to capsize. HAHAHHAHAH =X
Thats pretty much it for the camp!
FUN FUN FUN! =D

OFF TO CAMBODIA!!!!
SIEM REAB!

Actually I think I will take what I say from what I wrote plus summarise it but A LOT!

DAY 1:
ALL TRAVEL!!!!
From 9.45a.m. at Changi airport for breakfast!!!
10.30a.m. Meeting everyone plus check in...
2 hrs flight to HO CHI MINH!
round 1-2 hours later, we took a 1hr-45mins flight to CAMBODIA!
And when we reach, we all realised that the place was really nice.. but it was so small! THERE WAS ONLY 3 PLANES THERE AT THAT TIME!
After which, we took a bus to the guest house where we stay.. 10-15 mins?
So much to see when we were on the road... TIME WAS NOT AN ISSUE TO THEM!
THEY COULD STOP THEIR BIKES BY THE ROAD TO CHITCHAT AND EAT THEIR DA BAO FOOD! GAHHHHHH! hahahaha
And! there was so much landdd like... vast vast land!!!

Day 2:
TO THE CONSTRUCTION SITE!!!!!
once we reach, we had to level the ground, so we dig the soil from one area and put it to another to make the ground level...
After that I left to teach in a school!!!
all the kids there were so keen to learn! they took out their note book and pens to write down everything we wrote an the funny thing was that they would write the words the same size as you. So, if you write it very big on the board, they would write it very big on their book.
The thing that surprised me would be that everything which we wanted to teach the kids, the teacher knows so.. he would be qualified to be an english teacher that... HAHAHHA
We taught them words like:
-Hello
-Goodbye
-Welcome
-Thank you
-Hand
-Eyes
-Nose
-Teeth
-Candy
-Toothbrush.

And after that when we ended, we went back to the construction site and what we saw was a big whole by the "toilet-to-be" which was also known as the "shit whole" AHHAHA!
We had to dig a shit whole and the guys were working on it and it was tough! 2M deep! AHHHH!
so... yea we kept digging and take turns to dig... HAHAHA

That was the end of day 2!

DAY 3:
NEW PROJECT! DIG THE WELL AND TO SHIFT BRICKS AND ALSO LEVEL MORE GROUND!

We had to start digging a 6M deep well which was going to be used to take water for the medical post and it was going to be 6M deep! AHHHH!
One circle of cement after another.....and we had to stack them after the previous one goes deeper into the ground.
On the other side, we had to level out the soil so.. truck loads of soil kept coming in... so everytime we level out, they would bring in another truck load of soil... and then... back to square 1 of levelling out. HAHAHA

DAY 4:
WOKE UP AND WENT TO THE TEMPLE!!!
a temple which was kinda abandon... HAHAHA but it still looked pretty... AAHAH
Then we took the bus to the place with the family which makes the rattan basket! after that we try to come up with designs..

AND THEN... back to WORK! construction site.. but we did basically the same things..
After that, we left early to see the ceramics which was the target market for the basket weavers.. HAHAHHA has to come up with designs for it... then BACK HOME!

DAY 5:
TODAY WAS R&R DAY!
ANG KOR WATTTTTTTTTT!!!!!
We took the whole morning looking around ang kor wat and so... yea seen a lot.. ITS IS HUGEEEE!!! after we went to the main temple, we went to the other temple which was the one where tomb raider was filmed and it was nice! =D but by then we were all so tired!!!!
AND AFTER tHAT!
the land mines museum! it was... BORING!!! cause we watched a documentary/ video on it and it took real long...so... yea then we talked around thou it gets me thinking.. but then again... it was a little boring...

DAY 6:
BACK TO WORK! HAHAHAHHA
BUT DINNER WAS AWESOME! REALLY AWESOME!!!!
CURRY WITH RICE, DEEP FRIED PRAWNS, VEGE AND...... AND... MANGOESSSSSSS!!!!!!

AWESOME DINNER!
and TEAM D.R.E.A.M. WAS BORN! =D

DAY 7:
WORK... SAME THING... dig holes and fill them up.. HAHAHHA
WORK ENDED EARLY! CAUSE WE FINISHED OUR JOB! SO.... WE WENT TO THE FLOATING MARKET but it was so different from thailand's one... SO DIFFERENT!

DAY 8:
CONSTRUCTION!
Green amber was here....
We did painting and a little digging...
Then the basket design group went to the family and see if the designs were possible and we also tried to weave the basket... it was.. HARD! cause u have to make it tight and then make the rattan go alternate. HAHAHHAA
I LEARNT SOME KHMER/ CAMBODIAN!!! HAHAH My name written in that words..
THEY HAVE 59 LETTERS IN TOTAL! GAHHHH! SO MANY!

DINNER AT A MUSLIM RESTAURANT... THEN HOME!

DAY 9:
FOOD POISONING...
WENT TO THE HOSPITAL AND SLEPT AT HOME ALL DAY AND NIGHT LONG!!! =DDD
=( FELT LIKE CRAP THOU!

DAY 10:
HOME SWEET HOME!!!!!
TEAM D.R.E.A.M. Picture below!!!!

SOH/ALC 1 DAY CAMP!!!
12 & 19 JUNE 2010!!!!!

well in short, 12 was not so good.. 19 was much better..

HAD FUN!!! HAHHA HOPE EVERYONE DID! =DDDDD

GAMES AND ALL..
TADA! BELOW IS THE GROUP I STUCK WITH ON THE 19! =D

BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY BIRTHDAY!

NOW!
MR. SAW'S BIRTHDAY!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAW! HAHAH PASTAMANIA FOR DINNER!
=DDDDDD HEHE!

ELYSIA'S BIRTHDAY!!!!

HAHAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIA!!! BBQ AT TT's PLACE!!
AND TT WAS THE CHEF! HAHAHHAA
Met some new friends there... see some long lost friends.. HAHA

REALLY HAD FUN!!! LAUGH LIKE SIAO! BUT WAS SO TIRED BY THE END!!! MISS THEM!!!! SOOO SOO MUCH!

SOmetimes I just wanna be around people that make me laugh all day long... don't have to think of all those stuff...

WEI LIANG'S BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANG!!! =DDD
Well... BBQ AGAIN! BUT... IT WAS FUN!! LAUGHED A LOT ALSO!!!
with JX, Hellven, Val, Africa, CK... Dan, Christy... FUN FUN FUN OF COURSE BIRTHDAY BOY!
HAPPY 21st! =D

NOW FOR THE FINAL PART OF THIS POST!!!!

THIS GAL BELOW! someone I have been hanging out a lot with and it really a nice friend...
I shall not revile the secrets.. BUT.. ITS REALLY FUN TO BE AROUND WITH HER..
Needing to do the business plan and end up in starbucks talking nonsense.. but yet get the job done.. just a little sloppy.., BUT DONE!

HAHAH Its nice.. Hope we will still hang out after we submit this thing.. which is by tmr! and them we shall wait for the results! HAHAHA

SEE THE FACEEEEEEE!!! HAHAHHAHA

Alright.... that's all for this issue of.... LONG LONG AGO! HAHAHAHAH
will try to update more!

TAKE CARE EVERYONE!
THANKS FOR READING!! =DDD

BE BOLD..

2010-05-02T09:37:00.002+08:00

Be Bold

It could make you, or break you.

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So much has happened recently.. So many events!!!!
Freshmen orientation Programme...
School Started...
ESPN Forula Drift..

Coming soon:
Jive Welcome Tea
YTL Concert Celebrating 2010. Andrea Bocelli.

Wooooooo...
All the pics so far are in FaceBook! =D
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Ever felt like there are many people around you..
Just that none seems to care...

They seem to be your friend..
Just that you were the last on their list...

You would always care about them..
But they always thought you were independent...

Even so, you try to tell them.. what you need is them...
All they give you is 10 seconds...

Wish... Hope.. and disappointments..

THANKS FOR READING! =D

So long ago.

2010-04-11T19:37:00.021+08:00

Hello everyone which will read but I think it would actually be no one.

ANYWAY, it has been really really long since I last post here. HAHAHAHA

Well, here I am and so much has happened so far.. Let me just go through the more distinctive ones. HAHA ;)

So... lets start from the 25th of March!

Jive Main Committee Outing! =DDD

So we went to SENTOSA! HAHAHA had a lot of FUN!!!

We met so early.. meeting at 9am? at Harbourfront MRT then we went down to SENTOSA but before that some of us were hungry so we went to long john for breakfast then headed over but still many people were not there yet.

Giovanna, Wei liang and Hellven reached late at like... 1.30?

So it was, Me, Xue Li, Sabriya, Wei Li and Kin Meng untill 1.30 then we had Wei Liang, Hellven and Giovanna. =D

Thats when the fun started.. We played captain's ball haha SO TIRING! then continued with getting into the water and chill and building sand thingys.

WE JUST HAD LOTS OF FUN!

pictures says a thousand words.. CHECK IT OUT!

So when night fell, we went to vivo and met with Jia Yan and benjamin LOW JIAN MIN.. HAHAHA ate dinner and then then chill at the roof but it turned out to be a meeting.. LOL HAHAHAH =X

OH YES! WE MET LIFEGUARD FRIENDS! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAH FARNY! =DDDD

GROUP PHOTO AT THE END OF THE DAY!!! =D

GROUP PHOTO WITH LIFEGUARDS BEFORE BATH! =D

GROUP PHOTO ON THE ROCK WITHOUT KIN MENG. =D

GROUP PHOTO WITH SOMEONE ELSE TAKING IT FOR US! =D

HELLVEN AND I JUMPING OUT OF WATER.. I LIKE THIS PHOTO. =D

ME BEING A VICTIM TO BE THROWN IN THE WATER.. =X

JUMP SHOT!!! YAY! FLY HIGH!

ME AND MY NAME WRITTEN BY HELLVEN WHICH SAY U DON'T HAVE SKILL TO WRITE IT! KNS!

GROUP PHOTO ON THE ROCK WITH KIN MENG. HAHAHA =DD

OKAY! done with that!

NEXT!

26th March!

Out with E37G peeps which was very little people.. Me, stanley, samu, kelly-ann, Louisa...

HAHA just went out to chill and be retarded! =D had fun thou! AHAHHAHAHA

Talking about class, year 2 is starting which means new classmates and so I am going to miss E37G as and more of E35E!!!!! =(

Miss the fun we had.. well all I can hope is we meet more and that my new class is going to be just as awesome.. HOPE AND WISH..

BUT ANGELINE NEO IS IN MY CLASSSS HAHA SO IS GLENN AND ZOLENE! =DDDD

moving on....

28th March!!!!

Out with Michelle Tan Li Woon, Jocie Oh Li Ling, Malcolm Lim something something, Zolene Teo something something...

HAHA Zolz and MAL its not that I don't want to write but.. I wan to make fun or MTLW and JOLL HAHAHHAHAHAHHA

We went to... eat then chill and arcaded then K BOXED. HAHAHA

It was definitely fun to meet them again after so long! talking all the rubbish all over again... Ate BBQ Chicken. HHAHHA over the meal we rubbished so much... while singing K Box, we rubbished even more.. actually is I rubbish more.. HAHAHAHAH

GAME GAME GAME WITH GHOST.. HAHAHA JKJK

DRIVERS LEA!!!! I THINK THIS IS WHEN ZOLZ OVER TOOK ME THAT'S WHY SHE IS SO HAPPY.. HAHAHAHA

Done with that...

Now its...

29th and 30th of March!

ORIENTATION GROUP LEADER'S TRAINING!!!

Well it was kinda tiring and all that...

Briefed on what to take note on.. having the dry run of the games as well as the 100 seconds challenge and yea.. all that.. cheers and all.. to rah rah everyone..

DOING THE 100 SECONDS CHALLENGE! WE WANTED TO KILL SOMEONE! XD

CHEERING AND SHOUTING TO WN THE REST!

SOH, ARE YOU READYYYYYY?

EVER READDYYYYYY

WE ARE.... R-E-A-D-Y, WE ARE READY READY READY TO......

FIGHT LIKE A CHAMPION FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT,

SCORE LIKE A CHAMPION SCORE SCORE SCORE,

FIGHT LIKE A CHAMPION, SCORE LIKE A CHAMPION,

ALL THE REST CAN GO FLY KITE!

FLY KITE, FLY KITE, ALL THE REST CAN GO FLY KITE,

LATER KE-NA LIGHTING STRIKE,

HA-HA-HA.

NEH NEH NEH. NEH NEH NEH, NEH NEH NEH, NEH NEH NEH NEH NEH NEH, NEH NEH NEH.

S-O-H!!!!!!

hahahahahaha =ppp

Done with the shouting and dancing and everything...

31st March 2009...

Walked the Southern ridges from Henderson's waves all the way to a place called home.. long long walk..5 hours of walking.. with Yeshen.. HAHAHA

Tired mans! but you can see the pictures there... HAHHAHA

LOOK AT ME! HAHAH I AM THERE!

OH.. THAT ONE WAS A ZOOM IN.. THIS ONE IS ME FROM THE DISTANCE.. HAHAHAHA

YESHEN AND I ON THE HENDERSON'S WAVES..

ON THE WAVE!!!! HAHA WITH MY SUNGLASSESSSS...

AFTER all the walking...

it was 1st april and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY ELDEST BRO! =)

MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE!!!

THOU ITS LATE BUT... YEA.. HAHAHHAHA

AND THEN 6TH APRIL to 8TH APRIL!

E37G CHALET!

hahaha we really had a lots of fun.. not really nice to say what we did but had lots of fun! hahah group photo below... =D

although it might be the first chalet I've been to with the least number of people but then I think it was awesome with all the chilling out and sleeping and rotting. HAHA and gossiping and questioning and talking.. =DDD hahaha

welll 9th, the SOH day camp started and it was alright.. =D haha kinda had fun... KINDA... not really but KINDA.. cause maybe I am not the camper? HAHAH

And now the week end is over.. and

TOMORROW!!!!

FRESHMEN ORIENTATION PROGRAMMEEEEE HAHAHAH

I hope it turns out good! and we have fun! And WOOHOO! =D HAHAHHAHA YEA!!!! =DDDD

But reporting time is so earlyy oH well AHAHHAHA

OH! IRRITANT!

2010-03-21T20:46:00.003+08:00

OH! IRRITANT!

These days I've been pretty much so very happy and so very sad all at the same time...

Well, not talking about that.. it was a very boring Sunday today, with breakfast/ lunch and rotting all day long and then dinner came about..
This was where I found the most irritating person for a long time..

She has no relations to me, I did not do anything bad to her, I don't know why she was so irritated with me which caused me to be irritated with her instead.

I was at KOUFU in Tiong Bahru plaza.. I think I got the place right, anyway!!!!

I was buying BO BO CHA CHA from the dam desert stall and then the lady behind the counter was leaning back on the shelf behind with a look of "I do not want to serve you, GET LOST!" but I still wanted to buy.. And looking at her I assumed she was from China so, I spoke in Chinese and I WAS RIGHT! she was from China and then I wanted hot BO BO CHA CHA and she just said "don't have" in Chinese but there tone was indeed disturbing.

*The entire conversation was in Chinese thou*

The way she told me that the hot one was not available, was as bad as me owing her 1 year's supplies of rice and its the end of year kinda thing.

And so, I said I wanted the cold one then...
And I did not know how to say YAM in Chinese so, I just told her I don't want the YAM and she was replying me in Chinese: "WHAT YAM!? WHAT YAM?!"
SO DAM RUDE! AND HER FACE AS SO CONSTIPATED! GOODNESS ME!

And I got so pissed off I just paid and too it away..
I mean even though its KOUFU, she is still in the dam service line and I do know that after a day's work everyone will be tired but this is not acceptable..

The way she treated the customers was as though all of us owe her money!!!

GOSH! the one and only thing that piss me off after this long.. ARGH!

confession... to friends..

2010-03-11T23:18:00.003+08:00

Okay.. I actually think this one looks dam ugly. HAHAHA

Its been a few days since I last posted but yea.. Well changed the top of my blog and looking back at it, its kinda gross. so I think I will change it once again during my free time. HAHA which is actually quite often.. HAHAH

Well, these few days I've become happier, some people might know why, some might not but that not the point.. I just feel happier...
One reason for that would be because of me not being able to go online I could only appear offline and this made me realise that I have not been chatting with many people, so many of my friends that I have lost contact already...

* I am not saying the other reasons....HAHAHA*

Honestly, its some how bad because when I think back on my friends which I did not talk with for a long time, it seems like the memories are just so blur now. I really hope to refresh them... It would be so much better... and I've chat with some of you guys randomly and.. yeah.. hope that we will met up soon! =)
and I will try to talk to more people!!! =DDDD

lately... HAHA

2010-03-06T21:21:00.004+08:00

Lately, Town seems to be my home, I go there so often! and so far it has always been Cinieleasure.. So.. that's my new "hang out" I suppose...HAHA

Well, Have been going out so much lately that even I feel I've spent a lot of money and have not been home.. But sometimes I feel that if I am home, what could I do? Watch tv? watch shows on my laptop? I don't know. HAHA or maybe be a good boy and start doing house work! HAHAHA we'll see...

so.. I lost posted on the 1st.. and I totally cant remember that I did on the 2nd but on the third, went out and then met up with Mossan!!!, Yeshen, Samuel.. I wonder why he has so many names... HAI YO! AHHAHAH

So, anyway TADA! there we are.. We din know what to do.. so I went to look for him at city hall and went to marina square to EAT! *Only I ate...* Followed by... walking around and around.. watching shops close then chill at esplanade area.. =)
Nice place to relax and chill! =)))

And Home I went to!!!

4th March, Logistics meeting! GAHHHH!
CINIELEASUREEEEEEEE... HAHAHAH again.. and it was long! we din even realise that it was late already.. sadly... so, we just continued untill 9? yea and HOME! =)

GAHHH hahaha..

I guess I'm just going to update till here..
Not very interesting post huh?
HAHAHAHA I'll try to make my like more interesting then EVAAAA!! AHHAHA

My very trip to Ubin..

2010-03-01T09:30:00.002+08:00

Its been a while since I updated so, here it goes.
Well. first of all, happy end of cny to all, sadly all of you can't go knocking on people's doors and getting more ang pao..
BUT! happy to the traditional people cause they now can open up all their ang pows! cause its pass the 15th day!!! WOOO! start counting people!

And... so.. the biggest thing that have happened so far is the UBIN trip! SOH LEADERSHIP CAMP! HAHAHA

I really did have A LOT of fun! with the people and all that...
so.. Below is... UBIN KIDS! WOOOO! HAHHAHAHA

WE MADE IT SO FAR! WE MADE IT THOUGH UBIN.. YOU KNOW WHY?!
CAUSE WE ARE.... 强!!!!!! HAHAHAHHA
AND OVER HERE... below is everyone what went for the trip... =)

Well, the rest of the photos will be on fb... I hope..

Anyway. so lets start of with the very first day.. as the boat touched shore.. All of us were still in our very sleepy as well as unfamiliar mood of just keeping quiet and maybe talking to people we know...
And I was so glad that I was grouped with people I know... Giovanna and wei liang! =) well the rest either I don't know them, or I'm not so familiar with them.
well, we were asked to get 5 leaders so we did and we were given the map.. and let or leaders lead! =) And from here, we were named.. UBIN KIDS! WOOO! =)

And off we went and although we went lost sometimes, it was pretty fun! =) cause we stick together and to be honest I never blamed them cause I hope that people will not blame me for the mistakes that I make and still encourage me.
And so it started of as 3 of us, wei liang, Giovanna and I as the last man. =) So we started to sing to ourselves hoping that the time will pass faster as well as cheer people up with our singing..
We sang all sorts of songs! hahah from Chinese oldies, English oldies to English pop.. It was really a bast! HAHA =)))

So the land expedition went pass as we it hit 5.30 and the sight of base camp grew bigger but not so promising.. knowing that there would be nothing luxurious but now we also know that were is nothing to hope for cause all we had was a sheltered place and a small house to store our bags.. and I was just amazed at how things would work out.. and so when we reached, we took a short break and off to pitching out tents. =)
We helped each other and it just went up all so quickly.. and then cooking!!! haha Maggie noodles for dinner with hot dogs! haha mostly cooked by the gals and so I feel guilty for eating it.. HAHA
and after the 1st group took their bath, there was no more water left for us, the next group to bath...
Imagine... An entire day of trekking and all the perspiration running down your face and clothes and all being dried up and thus, you are feeling so sticky but yet, there was not one drop of water left to bath... well, its not entirely their fault, I shall assume that they don't know the amount of water left, so, they just used it freely and then realising that there was none left later..
Ouh well.. so I used wet wipes to get me though the night...

BUT! its was so darn hot in the night that I kept perspiring... and could not really get to sleep but when it hit 2am, i finally got some sleep but had to wake up at 4 plus 5.. and all the tents started to fall as we packed them up before day break.. the only thing that kept me going was the dip in the quarry (or how ever u spell it) and that was my bath....

AND FINALLY! day break! went over to the quarry and got our dip while trying out the life vest.. but the problem was, there was a lot of mud in the water so my shoes had stones and mud and everything of the water bed in it... but it was definitely refreshing... so we started to carry the kayaks to the base camp which the opening of the sea was.. it was heavy... so everything ready, and off we went.. started with everyone needing to capsize... hahaha then went back on and paddled all day long with breaks here and there and we finished it earlier then expected.. =) so we had a long break and it was fun! so.. then we went back and carried the kayaks to the quarry, washed it and placed it back.. and then our final quarry dip! =) and once again this was my bath till I reached school the next day.. its fresh water so.. I decided to tell myself that I was clean! =)))

BAD NEWS!
we had to go to another camp site cause ours was "invaded" GAHHH so.. we got out of our dip, went back to base camp, got our change of shoes... DRY! finally, packed our bags and off we went.. far far away.. to a nice place with the breeze and sand.. settled down after the long walk, pitched out tents once again and off we go to cooking! dinner, SPAGHETTI! plus wash up and then sleep! 90% of us too out the cover of the tent and used it as our ground sheet and slept there.. this night was amazing cause the temperature was just nice.. slept through till 7am..

RISE AND SHINE!
7A.M.
Packing begun, tents went down for the very last time... breakfast was random and off we went!
to the jetty! and it was a long walk, so we sang we tried to stay happy and keep our energy level up! =)
And on the boat we went.. so silent.. as some of our eye lids dropped low, some of us stared blankly into space as we have thoughts of how the camp went or maybe how much we missed home...
Off the boat, on the bus!
air corn! after 2days and 2 nights, this is civilisation..
Back to school, clear up, check equipments, split food and out last reflection and debrief... with the little fun activities..

BATH! MY BATH AFTER A LONG LONG TIME!!!! WATER!!!!
and I AM BURNT! totally red! AHHAHA and it hurt when we accidentally scratched each other.. MUAHAHAHAH

and went over to CWP ate PASTAMANIA! and then HOME!!!!!!!!

THAT, WAS MY 3D2N camp in UBIN!

How much we rely.. How much we care..

2010-02-21T17:43:00.003+08:00

How much we rely.. How much we care..

when we ask ourselves this: "How much do we rely on others? How much do we really care about them? know them?"

It really breaks down to 2 groups I guess.

1) Those which will always want to be strong, never be brought down by the rest.. Never want to burden them.. We never know how much people around us care for us and want to be there to help you through all the shit that you are going through..

Your intentions are good, to not burden the rest with your problems but it actually makes the people around you feel worst.. be it your parents, siblings or even your friends..

All that was brought forth to them was being more worried for you.. To know that you are in trouble but there was not way in which they could possibly help you to lighten your load.
Each second that pass, they wonder what will you do now? How are you feeling....

But there is always one thing that humans do which makes life the way it is...
"you say 1, but you do 2"
We say that we don't need any help but deep within, we are crying for someone to be there.. to care for you.. to let you know how much they will help and how far they will go for you..

so... Is telling them "Don't need to worry about me.. I'll be fine.." actually going to help them? put their minds at ease or is it going to bring them to a day of not knowing what's going to happen.. in YOUR life...

2)Those of which that rely on the other person like there is no tomorrow...
A burden they say.. and for this to work, the other part must be forgiving, nice, patient and everything good in the dictionary to let this very person stick to you 24/7 and pouring out their problems like there was no solution which their minds can come up with but they know that you can think of a solution and thus.. that's all they do...
Let you think.. make you stressed for them...

But I guess there will surely be one fine day in which we will all have too much... where it all over the head because we all know that the amount of stress each person can handle is for themselves... too much? then we gota say bye...

And now I think If you were to read this you will be wondering... "Where is number 3? the one which knows how to balance..."
Well, in the eyes of everyone is there really such a things a balance? Its either a devil or angel...
If you disagree, then.. Have you ever changed your perception of someone you hate.. is there someone you feel that is neutral in your circle of friends.. I'm pretty sure we all do it the same way.. "good friends" & "bad friends" maybe you have a different title but its the same "irritating friends" & "non- irritating friends"...

So now.. the real question is.. which will you be?
1? or 2? or maybe in your very own eyes you are 3?

2010-02-18T21:57:00.004+08:00

Like people always say.. lyric can actually tell how you feel... and..

I just fell in love with "true colours"

The lyrics are just so amazing that some people just don't realise it...
telling them about really looking into their hearts, taking what that is flaws to become something that is just described as a rainbow... beautiful..

Telling someone that you are always there for them because.. you just know that you are needed there..
And that's just how I feel about some of my friends which thinks they are full of flaws and want to change...
I feel that change comes naturally not because of someone... even if it is forceful.. it should be because of yourself...

The main thing is always... Love yourself for who you are.. then only can you love someone else or can someone love you..

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Have we ever wondered if there are some things not discovered out there which might just appear on day?

Ever thought something like that could appear?

Well.. I think its just amazing... and beautiful...

Picture: Tumblr.com

So much to update.

2010-02-13T12:22:00.003+08:00

There will be so much talking to do here and now...

But the first thing of all, I wanna wish all of you a pre-happy valentine's day and a Happy Chinese new year eve!

For those with a valentine, make your valentine happy!!! Bring them to meet your family! =) hahaha and for Chinese new year, have many dinners with your family, bond better and have more fun then you ever had cause this is the start of a new Chinese year! =)

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So, that being done, I have to go to the next part.

If you realised my previous post was named: "What one thinks part I"

so this time its...

What one thinks part II.

The previous time I was talking about children not knowing that their parents feel and just use their money, and everything like it was free and like there was no need to think about it.

So not let me talk about parents not understanding their children.

Sometimes, we all think that: " the games this kids play are not meant for me and I don't fit in there..." but the truth is that its cause they have no one else to play with and thus getting to know such games to self-entertain.

Some of your children out there wants our attention, wants you to be there for them to be their best friend as well as their role-model to be able to look up to you and also to tell you the things which are troubling them but, sometimes a barrier have really formed in the middle which just restricts that from happening.

Children feels as much stress as the adults.. although it might be problems which adults think is easy to solve, its still difficult to them.
Take for example, you at work, doing something wrong and you know your boss will find out and you start to get stressed over it, wishing and hoping that you won't get any scolding or anything like that.

And for a child, its when they don't do well for their test in school and just don't want to go home cause they are just so afraid to go home and get the scolding which they don't want.

At this very point, both the parent and child are having as much stress as each other so to me there is not such thing as I feel more stressed then you, no matter the age, everyone have their own level of stress and we have to look at each individual and their different problems and past to understand what they really feel....

"Don't leave your children unattended!"

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Quinta da Regaleira, Sintra, Portugal

Don't you just wish to be here and run up these stairs with someone you love and reach the top finding something amazing that both of you will be able to see for the first time?

Its just how nice this place is and the greening of the walls and pillars just helps to make it look nicer then not having them...

Beauty can be from what that was ugly.... ;)

Photos: Google search
http://landscapelifescape.tumblr.com

What one thinks, part 1.

2010-02-10T16:49:00.002+08:00

What one thinks, Part I...

As usual, I was on the mrt and once again it got me thinking about something...

*I just love mrts, they keep getting me to think.. and I don't know why..*

Well, there was the family of 5 in the mrt and the parents were sitting with the daughter, the older son was sitting on the opposite side and the youngest one was cross the door from the sister.. so them all sitting on the priority seats which meant that they could see each other through the glass panels.

so the youngest son was communicating with the older brother asking him to join him but he refused to and so he turned to the sister and started hand signals and played hand games (when they were still one door away) and so their father was just so curious as to what is going on in their minds to play such games and thinking how do they actually play it while the mother just sat there quietly with her hand filled with 3 boxes of nike shoes and one pair of crocs just in the same plastic bag.

It just occurred to me..could she be reflecting on the cost of those shoes and wonder if it was worth it? and it started to hit me as we (children) seldom or almost never know what they are thinking and all we do is complain...

Think of it this way.. if you were to provide for yourself, which meant working, would you just pick any shoe you see that you like? or will you check out the price? and I am very sure that everyone would check out the price but then when it comes to parents paying, it would be take what you want policy... which is kinda disturbing..

If you had kids and you had to provide for them, how would you feel if you have to buy things for them.. even though we all know its our duty as well as its what they need but after buying it, won't you just feel a ache in your heart? and imagine having 3 children... WOAH! triple the load my friend.

We never really try to understand why our parents do those things... Sometimes they restrict us from going out too late would be that they worry every second when its late? they don't want you to get into any trouble?
They hope that you take things slowly rather then just bust out into society and get yourself into so much trouble...
To be honest, when you screw up your life.. it has almost nothing to do with them cause they could just stand by and let you go through all this by yourself they seriously don't need you as much as you need them.. but why are they doing this to you?

Its cause they don't want you to take the wrong path... to be maybe someone which they were or even someone the know you will be unless they change all this...

Think about it.. how much your parents brought out for you...

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So its going to be the end of all UTs.. all the horrifying ones are over.. which of course includes maths and financial accounting.... but there is the last one to go which is on friday... MARKETING!!!!!

Well gota do some reading up soon... real soon...

Schedule is filling up fast.. so yea.. Wooo... many things to do in the holidays... we gotta see how things are going to work out but I hope things will go according to plan... =)

So...
A new picture found.. Wales....
AND NO SHERIE... ITS NOT THE ONE IN THE SEA! THIS ONE IS ABOVE...

Its amazing how some part of the world can look so similar but yet they are so far away..

Just close your eyes and picture yourself sitting right on the cliff with the nice breeze running past your face and the slow and shallow sound of the waves coming in... and the moist green grass just at your finger tips with no worries as to what to do next... cause its all far away from you...

Picture from: http://landscapelifescape.tumblr.com/

2010-02-04T09:39:00.002+08:00

"Better Off Alone"

Marie Digby.

I was naive not to let you go when the time was right

I was a fool living in a dream that I thought could last

But I know that you will try to prove me wrong

But it's what I've got to do

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say

I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way

I think you've forgotten, all of your plans

See you never meant to be here

And I think you should know

You're better off alone

And it's clear to me that everything has changed

Cuz nothing that we do feels the same any more

And I'll admit, I'll take the blame

Maybe we just moved too fast

And how could expect something like this to last

And I know that you will try and prove me wrong

But it's what I gotta do

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say

I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way

I think you've forgotten all of your plans

See you never meant to be here and I think you should know

You're better off alone

You and I, we were standing watching us fall apart

So let me go and move along

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say

I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way

I think you've forgotten all of your plans

See I never meant to be here and I think you should know

You're better off alone

Alone alone alone alone alone

Oh, you're better off alone

I think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say

I'm really just a loser, you're better off alone

Better off alone

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This would be how I feel now...
Songs are just great for expressing myself..
That's why I love it..

Some times I just wish to be in New Zealand and stand behind those fence and just feel the breeze, let time pass and have no worries..
The view is just amazing..

Picture from:http://landscapelifescape.tumblr.com/

SHINee!!! HERE IN SINGAPORE!!!

2010-02-01T23:14:00.004+08:00

SHINee HERE IN SINGAPORE!!!

Hey all! here is the "report" on SHINee HERE IN SINGAPORE!!!
Well.. It was located at... LOT 1 IN CCK!!!!

Lets go back in time.. it all started at 11PM! LUCK ME! I had Edna and also her nice friends to book a space for me so I had to be there before 12A.M. and I can 'Q' with them!!! HAHAHA

And the long wait started and Hellven joined me and managed to come before 12A.M... WOOO.. HAHAH then we started off with some games the the mood died down in the group but all around it was still chattering from everyone with excitement..
The lights soon went off.. so it was only lights from the MRT station to pass through the night... HAHA

People soon started sleeping..
And we just sat down to listen to music and also talked so some of the peeps there.. HAHA YAYA! the only one name I remember cause of Hellven when he keep disturbing her... so.. the time just keep going by and soon sab came! HAHAHAH
that was at like 1 plus 2? so we constantly met, went to Macs and also went to toilet..

As the times went by, the 'Q' just got longer and longer.. more and more U turns start to appear.. HAHAHA so the people organising the 'Q' came and wrote numbers for us so I saw number 107!!! hahahah quite near lea! then checked the names and we just sat there and chill...
Spent the whole night like that..

DAY BREAK! the sun started coming out!!!! WOOO! so its... 7AM!!!! the crowd started to get up and stretch and it was so jam packed!!!

AND THIS GROUP OF PEOPLE REALLY PISSED US OFF!!!
cause they insist that our 'Q' was not the "offical" Q so they just waited at the main entrance and formed a huge crowd there.. soon it got really bad.. these people just started to force the glass door open.. and then they just keep banging and all that till the glass door was spoilt! AND! they rushed in and started to wreck EVERYTHING! I mean they are just plain inconsiderate.. cause they din come earlier, and make a conclusion that our Q was not official... ARGH!

ABOVE^^ is the Q after 7AM.. when the sun is up!!! hahaha people still gathering and thinking if they should Q for it... and people are just organising them...

So.. Anyway.. THIS PIC IS WHEN WE ALREADY GOT UP TO LVL 5!!!
HOW!? the side stairs!!! hahah we were the "VIP" hahaha dam fun! so we reached up there at around 10A.M. And so we made payment and immediately got the CD, Poster and SCRATCH CARDS!!! AWESOME!!! HAHAHA
BUT
BUT
BUT
I got Teamin's.. SO... I was so darn thick skinned.. I went over the the batch after me and asked if I could change with those that had JONG HYUN's and I MANAGED TO GET IT!! WOOO!!! HHAHAHAH I was so darn HAPPY!!!!
So, the above picture are the JONG HYUN FANS!!!!! =))) the FANTATIC 4!!! AHHAHAHA

Here is Me WITH ZOLENE!!! AHHAHA while waiting for SHINee to appear!!! AHHAHA

And this is the Q for JONG HYUN!!! haha NUMBER 4!!!!

AND THIS ABOVE IS ONE OF THE PERSONS WHICH I HAVE TO THANK MOST FOR THIS ENTIRE THING!

EDNA!!!!!!

I REALLY WANT TO THANK HER FOR EVERYTHING!
FROM INTRODUCING K POP TO ME, TO BRINGING ME HERE AND HELPING ME WITH ALL THIS!!! I REALLY APPRECIATED IT!!! THANK U SO MUCH!!!!=))))

This is my signed album!! HAHAHAHAH =))))) GAHHHHHHH

And this is what Edna wrote for me... actually to him but they din even have time to read so... no point. but I'll still keep it safe with me! HAHAHAH

AND NOW!!! THE BEST PART EVERY!!!
THE PICTURE I TOOK! WHICH I AM SO PROUD OF!!! REALLY! HAHAHAH =))))

JONG HYUN!!!!!! HAHAHAHHAHAHA

THIS PHOTO IS REALLY NICE RIGHT?!!?!!

ALL THE WAITING IS WORTH IT!

And through this.. I really met a lot of nice people.. the whole bunch of gals, the 2 other guys or 3 I don't really remember their names but I think one is Rem.. HAHAH
If u people every see this,

THANKS SO MUCH CAUSE U ALL MADE A PART OF THIS WHOLE THING SO DARN FUN!!!

and I really opened my eyes to how crazy fans can get... how many fan boys are there.. AHHAHA all these little little things which I will remember... =)))

REALLY ENJOYED IT HELL LOT! =)))

Catching Up.

2010-01-30T16:19:00.003+08:00

Now its time for some catching up...

Having some problems in loading photos from my phone to my com.. so.. that sucks..
But that day fortunately I got some photos on my com!

So this is the flowers which Elysia gave us!! HAHAHAH so nice huh? esp the one in the vase right!? AHHAHA

I like this pic... ^

Looks like a funeral photo rigth!? =(

So, THANKS ELYSIA! THAT REALLY NICE! =))

and the other very recent thing that happened, would be the Entre Trade Show!
Its finally over.. THANKS EVERYONE THAT VOTED!! but I din win.. HAHAHA its still alright!

This is my little model of the cafe which I made *with a lot of help from my mum! * HAHAHA

NICE?! I love the little bar area... =))

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So I was on the MRT that very day and I just looked around..
And what I just saw was.. people from all walks of life...

When you look across to the other side, notice the people.. some of which I don't know anyone in the MRT..

You see some school kids and try to think of their day before you saw them... It could be quite interesting.. And when you see an old lady standing there, you look around to see who gives up their seat and she insist to stand which makes the thought more interesting as you don't know what she has been though the entire day..

You see a couple and you just wonder how long have they been together and what have they gone through???

With some more people pouring in... You see them from the different stations like city hall and you look at each and everyone coming in with their different dress codes and you think what were they doing in city hall..

Somehow I feel that we should try to understand the people's life which we don't really see.. all we actually see is the outer layer of what they want to show to us and out generalisation as well as stereotyping of each individual...

Our reactions never really made things right.. when we see a construction worker all we say is EEE but we never really think about how much they go through in one day.. what do they actually do during their work time?
It does not mean that just because our education level is higher then theirs, we can do what they can do...
But we actually can't can we? can you work physically all day long? can you physically carry the dam heavy stuff they do? do you know how much accuracy they need to have when it comes to putting things together? we never know cause we never really think not because we really are ignorant about it.

Talking about thinking of the various processes in each individual thing..

Have you ever though of how a can was actually made?
All we do is drink out of it and throw but we don't even see how its made.. how much effort is put into it...

Its not only cans..
One of which that I think people take for granted would be... your clothes...

well first of all, someone as to design those stuff...

Now look at what you are wearing... think of what the designer has to think of when he was designing it... soon he/she as to choose the right fabric.. the right colour and then comes the measurement...

then the cutting...

the stitching..

the trimming...

the final touches...

the mass production...

the different sizes...

the packaging...

the distribution to outlets....

the sales person has to put it on display...

then only it can been seen by you..

and sold to you....

That much work is put into one.. just one design of the clothes you wear...

think of how much the designer has to think when it comes to making one of those you have...

I feel like people just don't look into the things they glance at.. all they do is see and imagine that its meant to be this way and its so easy to be seen...

Daybreakers...

2010-01-26T13:43:00.002+08:00

Yea!! its day breakers!!!
Caught it yesterday! I think it was nice.. really nice.. but I didn't like the start of the show as well as the end of the show...
The start was too sudden and difficult to accept it that everyone was vampires..
and it goes on really nice. =)
but this show is all about fast moving images and loud sounds that scare people like every second.. I was shocked a couple of times..

And its such a sad show... so many people just die... sadly...

and the end was just... too sudden.. if they cured the people showed that their plan was working then it would be a good ending.. but all they say is that there is a cure.. and it ends..

How odd.. HAHA...

Well.. yea.. I did enjoy myself. quite a lot. so yea..

UT 3 coming real soon....

Entre trade show on Friday... so.. unprepared...
I hope to get things done by then.. =X

I am confused.

2010-01-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

I am confused..

I don't know what I really mean to you...
Sometimes you make me feel so special with all the little things you do..
with the little times where you are so concerned for me...

But then again I feel the cold side of you when you tell me what you call "facts"

I just feel like its the time again... the time for me to just give up start to forget what has happened and maybe I would live a much better life... not having to worry if you are who I think you are or if you are not...

You just leave me with no choice...

The two paths we have right before our eyes...

2010-01-23T22:22:00.002+08:00

The two paths we have right before our eyes.

Sometimes we wonder...
"What do I do now?"
"What comes next?"
"Which path do I choose?"

When we look at it, it seems like these things are right before us. Being able to stand right there in the middle of a split path not knowing which on to take..
Definitely on would be brighter with a clearer vision also known as: "The easy way out"
And there will always be the other, the dark and blurred way also known as: "the hard way around."
Honestly, how often do we get to pick the easy way out and get everything all right? We also get it right till some point which we regret and then want to turn back but there would be no chance in doing so, once you take one step into one path, that's the path you have to live with.

Taking the dark and creepy path might seem dangerous and something which we don't want to do but that would only lead us to the right path..

Some of us could find the way out of the easy path and make through the hard but right path yet again, they crawl back as they find feel that they can't make it any better which seems to be making what they have done worst...

Life is full of choices, full of paths to take...

and when we take the paths there are full of regrets we feel...

Make the path you take worth it, make the regrets you make worth regretting..

Picture from: Deviant Art.

SICK! TODAY & YESTERDAY!

2010-01-22T20:59:00.002+08:00

IT WAS TERRIBLE!

I felt dam sick yesterday.. =(
like cough, flu, fever...

Had to drag myself out of bed to school and sleep once i reached home and dragged myself out of bed again to the doctor and sleep!!!! all the way till 10 in the morning!
But today I feel much better already! YAY! but i missed ENTRE! =(((( DAM SAD!

School is ending soon.. its the end of week 13, means 2 more weeks till end of school! =((( change class once again..
moving to year 2.. =(((
OUH WELL...

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We usually think: "WHY DO I GET NOTHING IN RETURN WHEN I GIVE SO MUCH?!"

but have we ever asked ourselves if we actually gave at all? or did we give enough for that person to notice?
Did it every even occur to us that the problem lies with us?! that we din appreciate what we done for us!? like when someone does something which seems big to them but it seems small to you that you feel it was not even something which is hard for them and all we feel is that they are supposed to do that..

But if we really do things cause we want something back, then what the point of being friends? why not just be like businessman? making trades and agreements which is a win win situation where by both parties just benefit from it?

I see this happening...

2010-01-19T00:48:00.003+08:00

I see this happening..

I see this picture...

But I don't see the future...

I don't see what's going to happen next..

For all I know.. the impression you gave me... FAKE... the treatment I am going to give you.. FAKE

Watch... and learn....

2010-01-16T10:51:00.005+08:00

To people that feel RP is not a good school or it sucks...
And I some hoe am disappointed that some of these people are those that I call my friends...
But then again I don't really care some times cause I can tell you that RP is a great school...

Although the cert might not be that recognised according to some of you...
We have more fun!
We apply more to the problems!
and if you ask us, I think most of us would say that we don't regret coming into RP!
*most of us*
We have great friends here... A LOT of them...

So to those that said it....
I hope you take back your words and THINK.. cause we never did criticize the school that you studied in!
THINK AH! THINK!

Pictures from: Google Images.

Everyone has their problems..

2010-01-12T20:06:00.005+08:00

Everyone has their problems...

Some times we feel that someone else is luckier then us...
We just sit by our chair thinking that our life is miserable and someone else has a better life.
They could be rich,
they could be with a good gf/bf,
they could have many friends,
they might be moive stars,
they might be the most popular people in school...

But sometimes, we don't really see the other side of them...
They could be rich! but have no friends...
They could be with a good gf/bf, but they often quarrel...
They could have many friends, but none of which is true..
They might be movie stars, but they have to take the stress...
They might be the most popular in school and most bitched about in school..

Living another's life is never easy...
What if you lost all your money cause you wanted friends?
what if you lost all your friends cause you wanted money..
etc.
etc.
why don't we ever think the other way?
someone's life is worst then yours and we should be grateful of what we have..
We have no love from gf/bf but they have no love from their family..
We have not enough money to buy what we WANT, they have not enough money to buy what they NEED...
We have no friends which we think we can trust.. they have no one to talk to...
When did we ever think that way?

When did we ever feel blessed for that we have?
When will be ever be grateful for where we are?
When will we treasure who we know?
When will the greed for more ever stop?

We should always be happy for what we have..
you IDIOTS should stop grumbling over what you FEEL is not enough...
No matter how sad we might be, no matter how "hurt" we feel,
We should always be happy for what we are, for who we are..

Do what you love and love who you are..

WHAT A WEEK!

2010-01-10T12:49:00.002+08:00

this week has really been something.. HAHAHA

so much fun, so much emotional ups and downs, so much rushing and everything...

UTs were here and still are...
Open House came and went..
And all emotions all over the place..
Met new friends...

everything is so everything..
HAHAHA i dont know what am I saying now.. its like what I say now just don't make any sense..
but I sure had a lot of fun in the Open house with the new people I met, having to dance, getting hyper and all that..
Got LOA for maths UT which made things so much simpler for me...

but now there is FA UT coming up... ARGH!

anyway... so yea.. that's my latest updates.. AHAHAHAH

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I hope you are feeling fine although I might not know what you are really going through but I can feel the pain in you every time something like this happens...
To see you stuck in this way just makes me feel like a helpless friend...

I really hope I can help you to get things right but it seems like everyday that passes, things just gets more complicated as it goes....

But remember to hang on and everything will be fine... letting some things go would make you feel better some times...

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That's all I've got so... enjoy the rest of your day in front of your computer...

All a game...

2010-01-07T23:01:00.005+08:00

Life is just like a game... a maze..
We sometimes just start off well and not long later, we see that there is no road left and all we can do is take another road off...
All these little obstacles helps to make us stronger, however sometimes makes us feel like we can not handle the problems and thus wanting to give up and give me...
We meet people in the maze and try to get out of it together...
We lie, we cheat just to get to the other end...
We need moral support to complete this
We need physical support at some points in time...

Actually the best example would be harry potter? i think one of the movies they had this...
And it shows us how much some of us would give in to make things work, how some of us just wants to get to the other end alone and alive...
so, what are you?

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The first day of the open house has just ended...

SO, I am dam tired of the constant dancing which I cant dance...the cheering and shouting...
that's in short...
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Telling myself, what is not mine, is not mine... don't try to take it...
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I learnt.... i think...

2010-01-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

I learnt... I think...

So... it surely has been a tough road to walk the past couple of weeks.. but I think I have finally learnt that the road will never be easy, so all in all I still have to keep walking and this time.. with more smiles..
When one road comes to an end, another road just magically appear...and we still have to walk that road no matter how dark it looks...
And from what I see, the road ahead is going to be more the bumpy.. I think there might be landslides... but all I can do it move on after each fall.... with a smile on my face....

The second day of 2010..

2010-01-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

Its the second day of 2010 and I just failed my resolution... and its the simplest one.. to be happier...

So today was tiring cause of the dance practice *people, I cant dance!!!*
Started from 10? all the way till 3 plus 4... so yea.
The the few of us chilled and started to sing.. it was rather fun.. LOVE SINGING *but once again i cant sing for nuts*
Then... Marilous, Jia yan, Terrence, Ben, Hellven, Wei Liang, Eileen, Joanne and I ate at LJS.
MOVIE!!!! its been so dam long since I watched a movie with Terrence, Wei Liang, Helleven, Eileen and Joanne... watch Forth or something like that cant remember the exact title.. so yea...
SO TIRED... and home I am at....

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Thank you.. I feel like shit now....
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NEW BLOG SKIN!!!

2010-01-01T03:25:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAH
making this short and sweet...

I CHANGED MY BLOG SKIN!!!!

but i am still thinking if i should change the background...

shall think about it..

COMMENT ON MY SKIN AND TELL ME IF ITS NICE! =))))

The 2010 resolution...

2009-12-31T03:12:00.003+08:00

A resolution...

WAIT! first what is the definition of resolution cause I sometimes see some people taking it as new year's wishes which I don't think is right... I THINK resolution means to aim for something and to strive and get it by the end of 2010 or something like that... so.. I THINK...

Anyway my resolution would be:
-To be wiser,
-To be happier,
-Always have my family and friends,
-Improve and all the sucky ways I am *which is A LOT!*

well I guess since its the end of 2009, Lets just sum it all up.. although I might be a poser in copying people's idea, I admit! but.. I still wanna do it just that in a short term instead of going thru the details...

2009 has been a wonderful yet horrible year to be honest.. having so many things going on within a year..

-Getting the 'O' Level score of 22 points, bad stuff!!! made me so SAD...
-Not getting into NP or SP... SAD..
-Got into RP, din know what it was like, no friends... SAD
-Went for orientation met new friends and had fun! HAPPY
-Saw my first sem class... started of slow.. SAD
-Been through a hell lot with them... bonded, HAPPY
-17TH Birthday celebration with many people... HAPPY...
-NEVER REGRETTED GETTING INTO RP..
-E35E splits... DAM BLOODY SAD...
-Joined Jive camp.. ALONE... SAD..
-Met 1,3,5,7.... BONDED.. HAPPY..
-Met E37G... MY DARLING BITCHES.. happy..
-Shrank and bonded.. EMO CLUB... HAPPY!
-SHRANK more... BOOMSZXSer... HAPPIER
-Met Jive Committee, more friends, happy.
-Celebrated Christmas... HappY!
-Celebrated New year..

Through out this whole journey, I have met so many more friends...
In 1 year I got to know... the KABOOMBERS, E35Eers, JIVERs, 1,3,5,7ers, BOOMERSXSZS, and E37Gers...
Of course there are other external friends that I have met along the way and those worth remembering, I will remember you...

And talk about love, Ups.. Downs... its more then a roller coaster ride.. its like riding on a mad bull... its so tough to stay on and I fell and hurt myself so hard more then once... so yea...

Its a new year let us all bring something new to the new year, 2010! =)

A life journey of complications..

2009-12-30T20:49:00.002+08:00

A Life Journey... In complications...
when we see things in a simple and easy way.. I like you. that's all we see until something more in uncovered every time then it makes the journey more complicated..

lets use an analogy, you must be thinking what is that damn MRT system map doing there..
well, lets just say we want to get from boon lay (this is not an updated map) and get to changi airport...
One straight and and simple journey... that's what we think until we reach Outram park and find out that the track is faulty *uncovered and unexpected hiccup* so all you can do it take a long journey through the purple line and then to the red and back to the green... what we once thought was so simple be came so complicated..

That's just how we feel when we uncover some things in life..
I like you. *end of story 1*
*start of story 2* The one I like, likes someone else.
and the someone else likes someone else which you know.

so when one falls, the other follows and it turns into something you just never believed would happen would even occur but now it all seems to be a complication which you want to cut all strings from and let it all go....

New blogskin for 2010

2009-12-27T13:38:00.003+08:00

Hey all! so i've changed my blog skin background for the upcoming 2010!!!!
and although its kinda messy it will be cleared by the year 2010 and have a new look! =) hehe
so be prepared and watch out for the new blog skin!!!!

mean while, ill try to remove the Christmas songs.. hehehe i find it annyoing myself.. i think my old play list will be back if not it will be new songs so.. we'll see about that.. MUAHAHAHAHHA

Its christmas..

2009-12-25T14:08:00.002+08:00

Its Christmas everyone..

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL OF YOU!

so far.. I had a great time! THE EVE!!! WOOO! with my 8 angels from the sky...
definitely at fun! I think the updates on pictures will be on FaceBook yeh!? HAHAHA

so... tonight... the night... FAMILY YO FAMILY... and then will be seeing my 8 angels again!

Is love going to stop my christmas?!

Its amazing how we sometimes feel that we understand someone else that much but when we just turn around.. it seems like a different person all together..
We thought we would walk this route and go as the plan of your mind but as we turn around, that person which you thought would walk that route with you, has left.. to a detour...

And all you are left with is a long road ahead with no one to hold....

When we just open up...

2009-12-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

Love...

Makes us think....

What if it fails? What if it blooms?

To find out, we accept...

Wishing for the best, preparing for the worst.

We open up out heart to let the feeling in...

But as time goes by, we feel that... As fast as it all started, it ends..

We fall back...

With nothing to catch us, we fall, face flat...

Do we actually learn from there?

NO!

All we do is deceive ourselves and bring us back to the step of LOVE.

Sealed lips?

2009-12-19T11:54:00.003+08:00

The four little words: "My lips are sealed..."
How do they actually work? Does't it come with trust?
Thinking that you could pour out your deepest darkest secrets into their minds of no return... but in actual fact, they they needed to do was to draw it out again through this "sealed lips" and there goes the best word: "gossip" which is not the main reason why people care..
But actually what they feel that the trust that they have lost...

Thinking that this angel will have their halos above them and just be innocent and care for you..
But right till the end, you realise that all this was gone.. the innocence.. the little suspicions start to come about... the very nice days you had seems to vanish and all that is left was hatred.. and a self-questioning.. WHY!? why did I fall for this from the very start??

Picture from: Deviant Art

Would It have been easier?

2009-12-19T11:40:00.003+08:00

Would It have been easier?

Would it have been easier if the word: "NO" just came out from the very start?
To give false hopes would have made it a tough fight won't it? Leaving the person in the air and not knowing what to do.. Thinking if there was a need to get close?
Or was it space that is to be given...

Sometimes when looking around, we just suspect some things that make us broken hearted and not know what to do.. to take it as a fact? or to just lie to one's self by saying that it was not that you think it is.. it was just and accident or something that was not meant to be that way..

So what do you d now since you are trapped in this mess in which the two options above are hard to choose from.. its either lying to yourself or just let it go cause there was no answer in the first place and maybe the hopes should not be kept that high...

Pictures from: Deviant ART

A fluctuating love...

2009-12-15T00:33:00.003+08:00

A Fluctuating love...
Not knowing what to feel... having you be there for me when I needed you...
But I could not be there for you when you needed someone...
Even if I was not there,
you brought me up and down like the fluctuating graph...
Making me feel like I was on top of the world for one minute and the next, I feel deeper then the core of the earth...
Going up and down, really makes me go all around.. and makes me tired sometimes...
I don't know what am I to do now...
Will I be able to survive the roller-coaster ride?

Something I've never felt..

2009-12-13T23:21:00.003+08:00

Something that my eyes never let me see...
Something my ears never let me heard....
Something my mouth never let me say...
Something my heart never let me felt....
Witnessing the loss of a loved one... as a third party....

You never really see what's going on in the lives of the ones next to you... How they actually feel or what they will react when the little little things happens..
Or even when the large things happen....
It has been something new to me... to see how it all goes... how it all happens... and what they all do.....

Picture from: Deviant art.

Touch...

2009-12-13T00:52:00.003+08:00

Touch...

A feeling that seems like it cannot be expressed... When your loved one holds your hand and don't want to let it go...

It brings this warmth that you keep wanting and never want to let go...
Having someone to drop your head on... leaning back with no worries.. knowing that that person will be there for you..

When its the very first time... It just brings an unforgettable feeling.. but yet... you never know how to react and after it was all over.. you feel that you should have given back from what you took.. but it felt too late..
So, will there be a next time??? a second chance?

Photo from: Deviant art.

Stressed by UT.

2009-12-10T18:22:00.003+08:00

This is what I feel like now... squished up and all...PAIN IN THE BRAIN!!!!!
with all the UTs coming up.. and one that have just passed... its still 2 UTs before HOLIDAYS!!!

Marketing... which is TOMORROW and apparently I am absolutely not prepared!!! Although I am trying my best to revise.. all my brain juice is bring sucked out like how water evaporates under the flame...
And the next one would be... ENTRE!!!! OH GOSH! all the theories!! so going to do worst then UT1 which I already screwed up.. *people which states that you did worst then me, do not compare! cause... I still feel that I screwed up mine!*

And so I thought that tomorrow will be out with paul and wanxin after a million years.. its seems like... its not going to happen so.... screw that...

Pictures from: Deviant Art.

Close my eyes.

2009-12-09T23:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wish that I could just close my eyes and forget everything..
To think that there was hope...
To think that there was a chance...
I let it all out.. with my guard down.. and what I know in the end was.. it was not what I thought it was.

And when I found out that my heart was broken,
All I wanted and needed was someone else to fall back on..
but all I got was..
"I'll see you later.."

And what is left is.. the hard floor for me to fall on...
Thanks...

Picture from: www.deviantart.com

my second post of the day..

2009-12-07T22:15:00.003+08:00

I don't know why, but i am having a second post.. just to say...

ITS 18 MORE DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!!! HAHHAAH
So... GO MAKE YOUR CARD! MAKE YOUR PLANS! AND... LETS... PARTYYYYY HAHHAH

Never seen before? or missing out?

2009-12-07T20:16:00.002+08:00

Everyday we walk past the same thing and see the same thing... but we just feel its a norm.. we feel that it is supposed to be like this and it would always remain like this... but just one fine day... we look at it at a different time and with just one more element, it makes the picture seem complete...

We never really look at things at angle we can, with all our heart and see the beautiful side of it.. But of course, sometimes, there is always an ugly side to it all and when we see the perfectly normal side, we never realise the true colours in each person...

Every individual could be a liar, I mean, they could lie in the lest way they want to, they could be someone which they are not. Lying through.. showing you how nice and decent they are.. but deep within, the devil lies... the cheater.. until you have completely fallen for it.. it unleashes and take away everything of yours...the most precious... your feelings...

CHRISTMAHSS SOONN!!

2009-12-06T21:26:00.002+08:00

19 DAYS TO CHRISTMAS!!!!!

SO... I did this "poster" today and so, I here by wish all of you friends, readers and people an advanced merry Christmas!!!!

I am so excited! its going to be Christmas!!! I LOVE IT! but sadly don't usually celebrate it but I hope that this year will be different... I WANT TO CELEBRATE CHRISTMAS!!!! ARGH! I WANT WANT!

therefore, for those nice people which want to make my day wonderful on Christmas, you know what to do...

but sadly there is not snow in Singapore huh? oh well.. but i believe that Christmas in Singapore can be equally good... yea?
WISH ME ALL THE BEST AND YEA!!! MERRY CHRISTMAS IN ADVANCE..

So I say: "life is full of ups and downs and shits..."

2009-12-05T13:36:00.004+08:00

So I say: "Life is full of ups and downs and full of shits..."

There are always so much going on in life..
Sometimes we feel up and happy.. sometimes we feel down and like shit.. and its on the various problems that we have..
telling your friend: "cheer up dude!" is not going to help thou if the person is nice, he'll just smile.
but it never works dose it?

I don't really understand why do we have to face all the shit and envy the other person's life...
is it cause we did not put in enough effort? Or is it because it is not within our reach?
cause its not always the :" as long as you try, you can do it, nothing it impossible." thing.. cause we tried but cant seem to ever get it.. until just give it all up... *I'm not talking about those which did not even try."

Life is tough... ARGH.. oh well...

but actually I was just thinking. why is it that vulgarities can sound nice in any sentence at any part of it?
they seem to fit everywhere.. like... lets replace the F word with lets say.... HAPPY.
so..." GET THE HAPPY OUT OF MY HAPPYING LIFE YOU HAPPYING COW! GO HAPPY YOURSELF IN YOUR OWN HAPPY WORLD!"

wow.. how wonderful it sounds eh?

so much for asking people to be positive.. the negative is just too easy to use compared to the positives... maybe now we all know the reason for younger kids to learn vulgarities, maybe cause they don't want to think too much and want to just use a word to fit into the sentence...

well.. as of now.. I don't seem to be in much of a good mood but yea.. I hope I will later..
thanks for reading..

A conversation on twitter...

2009-12-04T20:24:00.002+08:00

Dawn? or Dusk?

Arlene said: "When actually you realise nobody cares, nobody understands."
So I replied: "its not that no one care or no one understands.. it that the person refuse to let anyone understand..."
And Joice came along: "no eh , i agree w arlenee! its not refuse to let anyone understand,is no one rly bothered to understand tt person"
I: "well, my view is different.. cause from the may people you know..if they are ur true friends, they will care.. 100%"
Jocie: "hmm its not that they wun care, but they cnt really help much because they cnt experience what you might be feeling ."
Michelle: "i agree with lesden though. only true friend cares even when you're perfectly fine."
Arlene:" LOL! TSK I took from my fwennnn one ok. haha But I'll retweet yours too. LOL"
Jocie: "and because they dun understand the exact feeling, the amt of care they give is nt enuff."
I:" thats cause you are not opening up enough... and will you understand how they feel?"
Michelle: "it's not about the amt of effort put in, and it's whether they are bother to."
Joice: "yeah what i mean was they will care , however the amount of care they will give eu is limited because they cnt exact feel how eu feeling."
Michelle: " friends / care / true / effort . B O O O O O O O ! "
I to Joice: "what do you mean? well even if i told you, you wont understand.. is it fair to say that!?"
I to Michelle: "so you feel that friends dont care and put no effort to be true?"
Michelle: "only true friends will // think of it , out of so many friends out there , how many are true .."
Joice: " yeah tt what i mean! lol"
I to Michelle:" is't the few that you have enough? =)"

so it just ended awkwardly like that.. but it was already unbelievable to have such a conversation to twitter... HAHA

Firstly, now thinking of it reminds me the time when Joice, Michelle and I used to stay back in class and just talk abut random things, just disagreeing with each other.. although it was quite an emotional time but it was till very very fun... missed it a lot.. being just a table away to show and shot your concerns... it all seems like just a meter away...
but now it seems like its all gone.. miss it loads..

Anyway.. IS IT DAWN OR DUSK?
I mean look at the picture above.. would you think that is dawn or dusk?
and so many things happened by chance.. everything just seems like it falls in place for this picture to be taken.. like who would know that they lights behind would be turned on and have an effect like this??

Have your friends forgotten you or is it that they are just too busy?
I really just want to talk about this friends thing.. so yea.. I mean I do treasure all of my friends and what they do but sometimes its just hard to contact and be like old times.. in the past what it was like was that we were just so close, we go to school together and just talk on the way to school but now we hardly meet and I just don't know how to show that concern for you.. I don't know what is going through your mind, what can i do to help?
Having a meet up session would be even tougher then before.. is not like we have all the time now.. we have so much to do but so little time.. so much to care for.. but so little time..

I hope that when there are plans here, there will understand and when there are plans there, here will understand... I just want everything to be the way it was but better.. I want the friendship to never end.. to be like it always existed not like it was going away..

That's all I've got, thanks for reading.. =)
take care all!

Its been the longes time.

2009-11-27T15:01:00.004+08:00

Oh gosh! its been the longest time since i last blogged.
so sorry to those nice people that view my blog and in the end it just turns out to be not updated. But.. Yea!
so i guess i will only highlight the main events that happened!
Which would be pei qi's birthday and the swimming event!!!!

Pei Pei... sorry to say it so late but.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! HAHAHAH
and this is one pic that we took....

Look like models right!? HAHAHA

so.. we really had a hell good time but i forgot the place we went as in the name but i will surely remember the experience! haha
we ate, took lots of photo and also had lots of fun!!!! =)
and there were so many types of pizzas!!! there is this unique one, the berry pizza, they had strawberries, blueberries and other berries on it! HAHAHA fun right?! it was like a dessert..
so yea.. after that we went homeeeee

Swimming event!!!! RINA/ARENA... hahaha
Made new friends there!! *only after the second day*
So for the first day, i had no idea of what do do and all so we basically screwed up the first part but after getting used to it, i think it was much simpler the simple. HAHHA just to remove and put the flag up again... HAHAH FUN!
so yea and i din know any swimmers but after the thing, i always remember one swimmer... Oussama Mellouli! hahah he swims so fast!!! =)) hahaha

So anyway 2nd day came and so the friends here and there just link link link and we had many hours of break i think 4or 5 hrs so we sat at the stairs and ate... and chilled and yea.. me being me, started with all my crazy talk and they started to call me annoying.. =( sadded HHAHAH
But made 2 more friends Chen Kuan and wei lun.. HAHAHHA..
nice people.. from what i know of.. hehe.
here are the pics!!I have no idea why are the pics so small... =(

So.. yea..
GOING OUT WITH RYAND AND MR. CHAN LATERRR =)
whats all i have i guess..
Thanks for reading.. will be updatig soon... i hope.

yet another week, week 6 of school

2009-11-14T13:48:00.004+08:00

Yet another week,
week 6 of school have just ended.
The last UT paper is on monday..

The week has beeeeen quite alright.
Lets just talk about the 2 most interesting events...
first one is on 11th NOv 20099999...

AFTER SCHOOLL..
went with marilou, elysia, sherie, pei qi, quin and myself to watch LIVE @ THE RED CARPET by Replug... yep.. kinda enjoyed it.. had fun talking about this and that.. and i saw my brother look a like (JASDEN HOE) the guy playing the trombone really look like my brother!!! it was dam hilarious! HAHAHAH and Farhan *idk how to spell his name* was there with the last performance.. yep! HAHAHA had fun listening.. wheee.
After that performance, we rushed over to the theater which was so much bigger and so much more happening! HAHAHA everyone cheered and all.. IT WAS MUSEII! DANCE DANCE AND MORE DANCE!!!!
loved the modern, hip hop and one more which i can not remember.. LOL!
it was really nice had lot of fun watching and "WAH-ING" HAHAHAHA
WORTH IT! =)

next would be.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY VICTOR TAN...

so we celebrated his birthday in the food haven... how.. interesting.. haha but it was like a small gathering for E35E! yea! hahaha then we just ate together, took photos and then had to so back to class to do PPT... =( oh welllVictor & IThe rest of us.

I totally have no idea why is the pic so small.. but yea... it is that small... and the quality.. eh eh.. HAHAHA

Well, thats all i've got.. so yea.. thanks for reading..
this is too boring.. but... i will try to make it more fun next time yea? i dont know why but i am kinda not in the right mood now... =/ AHHAHAHAHA

07 NOV.09

2009-11-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

Finallly have the time to blog haha. have been going home late everyday till mama is not pleased with it.. but.. oh well.. planning for stuff and studying for UT makes a life like that.

so its been a week and i don't think i am going in depth into all those day.. but maybe just saying what happened from the last time i left off.

1ST NOV 09- 2nd day of jive event: Run For Hope.
2ND NOV 09- HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE YING.
Napali Briefing.
3RD NOV 09- Start of horror! UT: COGNITIVE.
Napali Meeting
4TH NOV 09-Study for UT *HOW EXCITING*
5TH NOV 09-UT: MARKETING *which i din finish in time*
6TH NOV 09-Plan for stuff in school.
7TH NOV 09-Stay @ home to study for UT
8TH NOV 09-Napali EVENT
9TH NOV 09- UT: ENTREPRENEURSHIP

that was what happened and what is going to happen.. AHHHHHHHHH!

so i am trying to study for UT now but it seems like nothing is able to get into my head.. that's why i am here to blog..

something that kept in my mind all week long was from the time when i heard the song: permanent. It just brings back memories from E35E.... the very last day of school when we played the song and read the slides.. and it just reminds me of all the times together and what we did from the very first day to the first chalet and then the last day and the 2nd chalet.. it brings back memories like when i got thrown into other classes almost everyday and its not just one class it was like so many classes in the lvl.. had so much FUN!.. bringing in stuff from the outside and having a war in class with the flipping of tables and ya... HAHA
When thinking of E35E it actually reminds me of my entire life in rp, from the first day knowing more friends and having so much fun.. i don't remember having so much laughter last time (not saying that i don't enjoy last time) but its just a different feeling, having so much joy...

Like that Ziwei said before:"even if i had a choice to choose the school all over again and have a very good grade for my 'o's, i will still come back to RP."
For E35E, for Jive, Jivers, E37G, Kaboombers and friend's friends all over RP, SOME of the facis. I really have enjoyed my life and still am enjoying it as of now...

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY.. =)))

HALLOWEEEENNNN..

2009-10-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

so first of.. HAPPY HALLOWEEEN PEOPLE!!!!

to be honest, 17 years of my life and only this year it felt a little like Halloween.. well, i wish it would consecutively be like this the next few years!!!
So, lets talk about FRIDAY!!!
It was our celebration for Halloween... wheee and we first went to TRCC to chill and sang loudly
and kana scolded.. hahaha but we had dam lot of fun! also dancing.. i learn the "happy feet!" HEHE!
then when 9pm came, we headed down to the Agora halls cause the halloween celebration was held there!!! and i shall not comment more about it but i will talk about the haunted house.

We first went to line up and it took so dam long that we almost wanted to give up and just dance.. but we din.. and after awhile we found out the max number per group was 3 and us having 6 people, we decided to break into pairs! haha so elysia and i went in first.. and before going in i told her this:" scally we laugh through the whole thing"
and i did not take it seriously but we definitely laughed through the whole dam thing!
so we started off with the guy telling us the "ghost story" and we just had to bust his story by saying it was fake and he admit.. LOL!
and then moving on we had to climb on the tables and ya it was dam funny.. elysia saw someone or something below and din want to move so in the end the person below threw sweets up.. and her first reaction was: " next time can throw mars bars anot?" and i said " throw gold coins" LOL! then she still ask the guy:" the sweet can eat one?" haha.. it was really dumb!!!!
then we moved on to the thing which had a pannel which is so obvious that someone was behind it so he tried to scare up... and he was holding a sword so elysia had to say: " can lend me the sword?" HAHA it was dam funny... and i was looking for christopher through out that time..and when i saw him, he shook my and all that.. HAHAHA then as we walked along.. elysia had to point out where they are then they sian diao then we keep laughing non stop!!!! till the outside.. i dont want to go into details but this is my first haunted house trip and its dam hilarious! HAHHAHA had fun!

SOOOOOO the next big thing was today!!! JIVE EVENT: RUN FOR HOPE... giving ut goodie bags... and its the first time i find its so tyring...ahhhhh.. but i had a lot of fun!!! knowing more people... laughing, bitching * my nature* and ya just had lots of fun...
but i am so darn tired now that i feel like my eye lids have reached my mouth!
and tomorrow will be another day of goodie bag giving...

So tired now.. going to sleep... hehe

*I just hopes this continues.. cause it seems like somewhere is coming...*

when when when?

2009-10-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

Its the Wednesday today...

so well i have just some time now so i shall blog. =)
ok..
got my hair cut on Monday and i felt it is still rather long cause i expected to cut it short so yea.. but i am still fine with it.. its not like a new hair-do but then my fringe looks a bit like bangs so yep.. haha oh well..

Tuesday's module was... Maths..
well finally its not about vectors and so.. yay!!!
i understood more! hahahaa

Today was Accounting and like maths I understood more!!!
so i am starting to love accounting cause i finally understand somehow but i know i have some doubts so.. i have to clarify...
After school was slacking till 4.30 and went for the Napali event leader's briefing thanks to Glenn for recommending me. hahaa had fun with hellven and sabriya....
wondering how we have fun during a briefing? WAHAHAHA good question, no answer that you should know of! LOL!

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Quando Quando Quando...

Tell me when will you be mine
Tell me quando quando quando
We can share a love divine
Please don't make me wait again

When will you say yes to me
Tell me quando quando quando
You mean happiness to me
Oh my love please tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Every moments a day
Every day seems a lifetime
Let me show you the way
To a joy beyond compare

I can't wait a moment more
Tell me quando quando quando
Say its me that you adore
And then darling tell me when

Whoa lover tell me when
Oh darling tell me when
Oh come on tell me when
Yea tell me when

so i just wait here to wonder when you will be mine... when will you say yes to me.. i don't know what to do everyday but to think of you.. when ever i don't see you, the day seem incomplete.. seems like i am missing something, seems like i am hurt... today felt like there was so much hope but it was once again a day which was incomplete...

i dont know what to feel..

2009-10-27T17:12:00.007+08:00

idontknowwhattofeel...

Seeing you just stand there makes my adrenaline rise.. just makes me feel more anxious... having anxiety all over..

walking past you just makes me more then nervous, thinking if i should say anything or should i just pretend that there was nothing going on in me..

When you walk up to me... i wonder what are you doing to do...

are you just going to walk pass like you never knew me?

are you going to talk to me like you seldom do?
Or are you just going to surprise me with what I long for?

When you walk away...
I feel that what i have done was never right...
think back and realize that all i have done could be done in a better way...
It was never a must for you to do anything..
but its a want that i desire for you to do something...
something which you meant, that would affect me and you...

So what am i to do with you?
with myself....

Picture credit: Deviant Art.

25th OCTOBER.. 2009

2009-10-25T17:51:00.005+08:00

Another week have come and gone..
its the end of week 3 of school..
and.. BREAKING NEWS! I GOT MY FIRST "D"!!!! ARGH! STUPID SHIT!
never mind that...
talking about grades... Other then Cognitive, i have not gotten even 1 A for any of the other modules. its getting bad.. real bad.. sighs...

ANYWAY.. talking about the bigger events which happened this week..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIANG LIANG....

so...23rd oct 2009, Friday..
Yep! we met up in school then the gals dressed liang yu up... then we headed down to Clark Quay. and... ate at this Cuban place... not too bad.. the food is alright but slightly costly... maybe cause i am broke. HAHAHA.. =)
then we just chilled there for a long time then went off.. walked around that area and sat by the river to chill and talk and take lots and lots of pictures.. =))

This would be one example...

HAHA! i had fun!! and i hope the rest and liang had fun too!!!!
*liang had her very first blog job on that very day* WOOHOO! HAHAHHAHAHAHA

24th - 25th Oct...
SWIMMING EVENT! HAHAHA

US!

well, we slacked a lot.. had fun...
on the 24th, we had to report by 7A.M.! so early.. =(
and then help out in the various ways.. then after that would be break time! 10 plus till 4PM! HAHAHAHHA
WOOHOOO dam long..
took out own sweet time to eat and then headed to plan L4D! HAHAHAHA
and walked around, at the ice thing... so yep! had loads of fun! =)
then went back to "work" HAHA
ended at like 6 plus then we went to mos to eat. and HOME SWEET HOOME! =)

today!
report at 745 A.M. and did or job and it ended at like 10 plus? but went to eat and all went home at around 1 plus.. hahah
SWIM! after watching those peeps swim.. i am so motivated to swim too! HAHA
so i did go and swim and now i am back....

SO.. basically thats what that happened this week... other then lessons...

EVER WONDERED WHAT THE PERSON YOU ARE LOOKING AT IS THINKING?
While the swimmers were swimming earlier today... i was just wondering... what was in their mind.. cause when swim, I would not really think of the surroundings, i would think more of how far i was to the end. and i just keep going.. listening and feel the bubbles gush pass my ears and my face and making my movements a pattern with a beat to keep it constant, with so much on my mind, i doubt i will be able to think about anything else.. and when i am just watching them, i would think about the weather, think about the people cheering for them and also who is winning or even the little things that happen...

So just imagine someone you see across the room, what is he/she thinking? if he/she looks into your eyes, is he/she thinking what you are thinking? or is it a wrong message sent due to the difference in perception... so how much misunderstandings will you get?

I just want to look into your eyes and know what you are thinking.. what if i can read your mind? i will be able to know what you want what you need and be your best friend, be the one which can be there for you.. but unfortunately, the human mind is that complicated and thus it causes so much stress and upset or emotional changes as we keep trying to think what the other party is thinking and we will drive ourselves crazy...

Please don't drive me crazy.. let me know what you want, what you need, let me be there for you?

GOODBYE LONG LUSHES HAIR..... ='(

today..

2009-10-18T15:18:00.002+08:00

Today moo-day..
just being random but i know that today i will be home the entire day as i have no plans and yep.. so i think i might as well just take this free time to pour out everything which i can here? like i used to.. thinking of little little things...

So Lousia and I were just talking last night about the feelings one might have what one will be going through...
What is the feeling?
To be honest, i think this topic is so darn common but then it never gets solved.. like everyone always say.. love is a feeling that cant be explained...

So what do you feel when you don't have the love you want? *not counting love from family or friends, in other words love from someone you think would be your life time partner*
Its like something that makes you feel lost and all lone, looking at the people around you slowly falling in love with someone and u feel that they have the Bliss of getting there, having a feeling of jealousy, lets say you are in their shoes, when you have a crush on someone, how will you feel?

uncomfortable? cause you don't know what the other party is talking about and just every little information would be a relive to you, knowing what he/she is doing.. where he/she is going.. who he/she is with... this spells some trouble... cause it just makes you go crazy about that person.. i wonder why...

So how will your friends feel soon after u get closer and closer?
It just brings then jealousy..
1) cause everyone knows that when u have a partner, you will naturally want to go to them instead of having the normal hangouts with your friends.
2) when they are single, they just feel that you have the bliss which they know they wont have till a long time later.. and i seems like you are so darn lucky...

Getting together...
you feel happy, your partner feels happy but ur friends don't feel happy...
*thou they will 100% say that they are happy for you cause they are your friends*

Breaking up * TOUCH WOOD! not saying everyone will but just IF*
So how will you feel?
-don't know what to do or where to go, so you cry...
you know you cant patch back..
know how they will think you know you cant just go back to your friends that easily cause you dumped them and you don'tof you.

But how will your friends feel?
- if they are fake friends they will leave you and think that its your fault to leave them first.
-But those good friends of yours will surely feel insulted.. cause you don't find them when you are down and all they want to do is to be there for you and let u cry next to them... let u pour out everything.. help you stand up all over again and not make the mistake.. but people will just feel too ashamed to do so.. so whats the point of people saying that they will be there for you when you don't even consider them?

So.. WHAT THE HELL DO I FEEL?
Jealously would be the key point i guess.. thinking why is it that people around be could get a partner, feel the love but yet i cant..
so i start this soul search which might be dumb.. thinking if i am just too childish for anyone to like.. it seems like no one will fall for me huh? then i think again is it that my looks are not acceptable? is it that i am to skinny? all this shit just happens..
or is that just a major flaw in me?

the feeling of seeing someone i like not possibly liking me.. wont it be hurtful? I mean u care so much about them, their every move, their every thought.. what they want.. what they have.. who they are.. but yet.. you know they just wont be yours....

I'm BACK

2009-10-17T21:06:00.005+08:00

I KNOW! i have not been blogging for a long long time.. but its either i am so tired or i dont have time! HAHAHA

So well let me talk about the BIG EVENTS!!! WHEEEE
10TH OCTOBER!!!
Celebrated alexis's birthday!!
A BBQ that is over night... @ parsir ris park!!!
well we first met at parsir ris MRT and then headed to downtown there, E!hub then went to the foodcourt to sit and chill and ate.. for thoese what are hungry....
and after that we bought some stuff and headed down to the parsir ris park! ahha long walk.. =( but it was fun! all the talking and random stuff happening around.. like suddenly just squating and singing then just going off when others give a stunned look.. =)
but we went to the wrong place like twice.. cause we thought it was a shelter.. but it was not.. it was just the open space but it was dam dark.. so the guys set up the tents while some of us went to drop teresa off and fetch joide in! and by the time we were back, 2 tents were set up and we lighted candles and but it all around the tent and also making a firgure saying "18" hahah! it looked really nice.. =)
then we started the mini BBQ and started eatting and talking.. =)
so as we went on, we talked about how we felt about alexis and all that... and slowly one by one people left. =( like joice, michelle, lynn, jodie then it was left with afew of us... then we just started to burn stuff, talk and chill.. i talked to elysia on the phone for rather long..
when 5am came, we started to pack and off we went.. home sweet home..

Alexis and I!

Thinking that it was a waste to just fall asleep on the entire sunday, i din! haha! i just continued my life like a normal sunday..
reahing home and then bathing and immediately going out to eat breakfast with DAD AND MUM! hahaha and lived my dam as normal.
=)

And monday came.. i meant at 12am.. so, a happy birthday to shawn pang.. =)
then went to sleep... imagine 34 hours with no sleep.. and sleepng for only 6 hours and then going to school!!!
COGNITIVE!!!!
it was not bad, just talking about Atomistic and Holistic. hahaha
and so the day passed like that.. having getting closer with my class as we get more perked up..

tues to thurs was just lessons as lessons

WED! after school.. TENNIS! haha WOOHO!!!
well, i definetly emoed..GOSH I HATED THAT! thinking of so many things.. but it was mostly of no use... sitting all alone in the dark... well yea.. then i suddenly became hyper but everyone else was not.. hehe.. oh well..

THURS... TERRENCE TEO's BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH TEO!
so yep.. we went for 2nd break together... as 1.3.5.7 first time.. =)
then we sang him his bithday song in the middle of the south foodcourt. but it was so soft.. not fun one. =( oh well after that we went to the out side to eat the cake and the dabaos. =) then took some pictures and went back to class to do PPT. =)
SCHOOL ENDS! and there was the DIEM talk.. well it was not a fun talk but i guess we have to start observing the rules. =( oh well. no slippers and all that...
TIAN TIAN HUO GUO!!!
steamboat at bugis! hahaha to celebrat terrence's birthday.. the place was not say very good but yea. i guess we were all full.. LOL...
then gave him his present, took pictures and went home!!! haha

FRIDAY!
DUE to the night life that they had *Terrence, elysia, mariou, queen, sherie, and jia yan* firday was different. LOL!
early in the morning, i open my eyes, i see an sms saying: " i am very tired, i will be in school late or not going.. SEE YOU IN SCHOOL =X"
so i though i will see terrence later.. and when i reached the mrt.. i called LOU
and she was also going late. so i just went to school alone... and yep.. by the first break.. NONE OF THEM WERE THERE! so i went down with E37G..
with Chole, Angeline Chong, Louisa, Samu and Shawn. to the cafe and bought some food then went back.. byt he time i reached the lift, i finished everything. AHAHAH...
and 2nd break was as usual! E35E!!!!! =)
but sadly very little people were there.. oh well..
AFTER SCHOOL.. went to terrence's place and just chilled but they played mj.. so i did by rj and all... =) and went home!...

TODAY!
EARLY MORNING! opened my eyes... 10.15!!! AHHH i am so late! hahaha i was to be at clementi mrt by 10.20..!!!!
so, i told terrence and rushed there.... and made it... at 11 HAHAHA
then we headed down and saw korean and his friend which i forgot his name... in the mrt! =)
and met queen, elysia and manfred at city hall mrt. then we went to marina square and ate there.. after that we went to the talk in suntec...

MY NAME IS NOW TEO YONGFENG!! hahah well, i was a replacement and then they din have a tage for me to they gave me one.. and apparently.. it was manfred and terrence's ex-classmate.. AHHAHA. oh well..the talk was alright.. =) took down some notes and manfred and I must present to the class on friday!!!!! then we went to marina square to window shop and chill there.. and then home!!!! =)
dinner and now here! =)

tomorrow is going to be a free day...
Monday is going to be a tennis day...
Tuesday is going to be E35E day? not sure yet...
Wednessday is going to be Tennis day? not sure either...
Thursday is Liang yu's birthday!
Friday is going to be Liang Yu's birthday celebration!
Saturday and Sunday will be Swimming Event, help out. HAHAHA

Well thanks all for reading.. and sorry for the slow blogging process. HAHAA
hope u keep reading. =)

OH YES!!!! SHINee's NEW MV IS OUT!!! RING DING DONG!! WOOHOOOO!

SCHOOL STARTED

2009-10-09T22:41:00.003+08:00

OH GOSH!
SCHOOL STARTED!!! new class new faci.. new so many things..
Have been so darn busy that I have not been updating.. so sorry about that!
well, it has been one week.. maybe i will just go through it all quickly..

MONDAY 4TH OCT.
Day one of school! of course i would be exited.. or just a little..
having the group of: Angeline, Athirah, sukashi, Naqiah and myself!
It went better then I expected it to cause of my very enthu group.. we warmed up so quickly.. then laughed a lot! haha it was not too bad a class!
it was COGNITIVE...
din really like the problem for that day.. =(
Talking about scientific and critical thinking.. pfft...
and when first break came.. i went to meet JIVERS.. and 2nd break.. E35E sem 1 2009.
so yep.. it has been this way for the past few days,..

TUESDAY 5TH OCT
2nd day...
MATHS!
and guess what, SAME GROUP! hahaha nice rite?!
BUT maths was HORRIBLE!!!! cause i think no one in my group was good in maths.. so.. in our presentation, there was no solution, no numbers at all, no usage of TOA CAH SOH, none of that sort... hehe...

again meeting @ breaks...
Here is E35E!!!! =)))

WED 6TH OCT
FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING!!!
THIS WAS MORE HORRIBLE THEN HORRIBLE... the faci was nice and all..
BUT THE MODULE WAS... OMG!!!!! ya
and some more i don't have any background or accounting..
the good thing was, SAME GROUP AGAIN! HAHAHHAA
so our presentation was not very good.. hehe...

AFTER SCHOOL!!! went to celebrate annable's birthday with her @ Henderson's waves!!! haha
not as i expected.. i thought it would be better.. but yea.. had loads of fun.. i think the pics will be up on FB soon. have to wait for annable to upload them..
so what happened that day... I went with E35E to orchard for about 1/2 hr then went to vivo to buy the stuff, meeting, soap, handi, eustace, felix , HH and also shawn there... they bought snacks while HH and i went to buy the CAKE!!!! the nice cake.. hahah
then we told the guys to go on first.. and so we met annable and brianston there too!! haha then the 4 of us headed down to henderson's waves, giving her a surprise with the other guys coming in..but i think she was not surprised.. LOL...
then we jus ate ans talk and some played cards.. slowly, we just give her the presents! a bear and planner.. hope she likes it. =) OK THEN.. we just continued to chill pack up a bit and HH and I took out the CANDY!!! the long long lolly pop look-a-like candy.. so we sucked on it and din even finish 1/8th of the candy and threw it away...it was fun to take pic with thou! hahaha so yea.. so!!!! i had funn. =) hahas

THURSDAY 7TH OCT
MARKETING!!!! the module i love the most so far..
so ITS A NEW GROUP!!!!! had.. Abigail, stanely, natalie, and once again SUKASHI...
sukashi came late.. and before she came.. THE GROUP WAS SO QUIET!!!! =(
so our worksheet had this activity.. and it was to create a hand phone and sell it.. HERE IS OURS!!!

CUTE RITE?!

cute right? the phone is round! and the two sides which says.. HIDE ME, it can be kept so it would be a normal touch screen phone. and it has speakers!!!! and a key pad which is like a key board of your laptop!!! hahaha!!!
so yep.. had quiet some fun and finally, i am not 100% clueless.. i knew what it was about.. so!!! the presentation was alright ba.. =)

and after school.. we were chilling out at the cafe above south food court. and then went to the library to do RJ and went to town.. actually was to see dance but there was none so we went to play pool at cinie and went to eat at LJS and went home!!! hahah

SO... TODAY!!! FRIDAY!!! TGIF!!!
8TH OCT!!!!
Entrepreneurship...
din really like it.. but my group was awesome!!! consisted of Farrah, angeline, AMIN!!!! and Pauline.
AMIN IS IN MY CLASS FOR ENTREPRENEURSHIP!!!!
well the class today was like.. lenghty.. =(
so drained.. oh well.. see how it goes i guess..

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These few days have been so busy with stuff .... and tomorrow, we will be celebrating alexis'sbirthday!!!! ohwelll.. hope its lots of kick ass fun! =)
well, thanks for reading.. hope you enjoyed.. =)

Re-posting

2009-10-03T00:29:00.002+08:00

here i am once again.. i'm just going to re-post about my previous post.. the part about the chalet.. =/

HAHA and also add on today and some thoughts...

28TH September 2009... MONDAYYYYY
Its the very first day of chalet and everyone was lost.. hahaha
so we went to the place and realized that it was so BIGGGG.. =)
and after that amin and i went to pick alexis up... wheeeee.. and when everyone was there, we were all just watching tv... like some of them said... "like old folks home" seriously.. cause we just sat there quietly and watched tv... and so.... day one past..
NIGHT TIME...
well we went with the plan of watching horror shows... hehe.. so we watched some movies and then when some of them went to sleep, other continued to watch till 6 im the morning... =)) and i was one of them.. then went to sleep...

29TH September... TUESDAYYYYY
Played soccerrrr hahaha... ME! PLAY! SOCCER! IMAGINE THAT! but of course i lost. HAHA but whats new? well, had fun... and yep... we just continue to chill after that...
SOONNNNN...
we started to prepare for the BBQ!!!! but sadly NONE of the facis came at all.. such a sad sad thing... oh well... then we cooked a lot!!! including TOM YAM SOUP!!!! haha it was nice.. =) but we could not finish the stuff.. so it went to waste... and then after that some of them went out for their night walk and also went to buy stuff... while alexis, me, ida, jodie and dee watched MOVIESS... NO VACANCY and 17 AGAIN! hahaha =))
the went to sleep..

30TH SEPTEMBER..
I woke up pretty late.. hehe...
then after chilling, we decided to play our WATER GAMES!!!
so we filled the bags up with water and started throwing at each other.. and after that... buckets and pots CAME!!! hahah.. running all over the place.. even to the road! hahah had dam lot of fun.. and so it ended LATE!!! everyone was wet, my shirt was off *i did not do it on purpose*
8PM.. everyone went to bath...
reached E-hub at 9 plus and fair price was closed. =(..
so we walked further down to the shop-N-save.. bought some stuff and headed back to the chalet..
to cook dinner..
the cooking atrted at 12 odd? and everyone ate at 3? HAHA
and we finished cleaning the stuff up by 6.. hehe... so.. yep.. then watched the not touching vid... cause it was half done... hehes.. *this one is my fault*
so anyway... after that we all went to sleep... and woke up at 9 plus and packed up and headed to whitesands and slowly one by one left but some of us stayed at mac till 2pm... just chilling and talking.. and some cried.. cause we checked our class... ='(

this was the end of it all.. =(

TODAY! or yesterday... 2nd OCT 2009..
stayed home.. LOL
soon.. and after that but then by 5 plus elysia sms-ed me.. saying that she will be meeting sherie for dinner... and so i went along.. went to orchard... and ate at hong kong cafe.. haha.. then we went to taka to buy mooncake.. DURIAN MOONCAKE... rather ex thou.. =( sad me... so yep... then we went there.. after buying we walked out of the food place and realized that outside, THEY WERE SELLING MOONCAKES!!!! so we got ripped off i think.. =( but we still enjoyed.. we went near cinie and put a candle on the mooncake and ate it. it was MESSY!!! see the pics which should be up on fbsherie had to head off to meet her friend so elysia and I went to ion to walk and we talked and looked a lot about food!!! hahaha.. sighs... so expensive! *pfftt...*

having said so much.. i have been thinking these few days about FRIENDSHIP...
to realize that in this 1/2 a year i have made so many more friends, people of E35E, friends of friends e.g. Zolene, Malcolm, and so on.., Freshmen Orientation Camp mates.., Jive camp mates, F1 grid bar work mates... it has only been 1/2 a year and i have met so many people and all of them are so darn nice.. i mean i want to go out with ALL OF THEM.. but what if one fine day an outing organized by them all clashes where am i to go? not to say that i prioritize any group from another cause i know that all of them care for me and also are very nice people.. so i don't want to offend anyone.. but what if that happened?, where am i to go?

Or in another case, what if some of us just lose contact like that? wont it be such a pity.. just cause no one called to meet up.. and to think of it that there will be upcoming new classes... so it means more group of friends.. so... WOAH! that's a lot to handle..

well, i just hope that everyone will keep in touch and sometimes understand that its not that i don't want to meet up but i might be caught up with another group of friends in which i do not put them before anyone... i just hope that things will work out just fine.. =)

well, thats all for today... thanks for reading this long long long post again.. haha.. =)

Its been.. dam long!

2009-10-01T21:52:00.015+08:00

WOHOOOOO..
HAHA! its been so darn long since I last updated my blog... hehe..
oh well.. anyway i am here to update and this is going to be a long long long post!! hehes
lets go thru last week and this week...

Monday, 21st September..
it was michelle tan's birthday so... HAPY BIRTHDAY.. haha.. *after so long*
and so on her birthday she wanted it to be not so boring so... joice planned it for her and she had to play the amazing race.. hahah going everywhere in town... and last station is ViVO city.. haha
This pisture above it with all of us at Vivo... and u see the things we are holding, its actually people of our class which were not able to make it.. hahas... so yep! she finished it... then we sat there talked, eat cake and also played limbo.. so fun! hahaha nd we found out that the guys are mroe flexible then the gals... YAY to us! WOOTS!!!!
Poor alexis... hahaha but it was fun... and after vivo, we decided to eat nicer food which was NEW YORK NEW YORK.. and we were considering if we wanted to go to city hall's one or AMK hub.. and we decided on AMK hub cause its neaer to their house... and yea.. had a great time.. i really hope that michelle enjoyed it too.. =)
cause Zolene and I made her do a lot of things at orchard... like... asking for e-mail, taking picture with others, asking people about ther fist inpressions on her... and so on.. it was funny... so yep... =)

Tuesday, 22nd September 2009...
Met up with 1.3.5.7.
i really felt this time was a success and liang as the planner.. so... YAY.. cause most of the people came we went to sake sushi to eat... the one in woodlands.. =)) and i really enjoyed myself...
It was like my table i was the only guy till glenn came..
and glenn coming was really something which i felt was nice and good.. cause he seldom joins us so.. this time.. YAY... haha and we took up 3 tables.. having Ben to join us... but my table had 8 people! hahaha so many.. but it was really fun.. =)
TADA!!! there is everyone of 1.3.5.7. WHEEEEE... so... yea.. then after sushi.. some had to buy shoes, some had to go off.. so the remaning people went to jia yan's place and elysia brought her Wii.. and once again... we had a hell of fun! hahaha made a lot of noise then went home.. i really home to have more of this kind of outings.. =)))

Wednessday, 23rd September 2009...
All i did was went for F1 traning.. up till this point, I am still clod towards everyone.. being alone and all.. then just went thru with it.. but the best part was..
after learning everything like accepting credit cards... we only accept cash.. the ones in esplanade... haha.. but it was a much easier job!.. =)) rather happy!...

Thursday, 24th September 2009...
CHANGI AIRPORT>>>>
went with marilou, elysia and terrence.. but..
I WAS 3 HOURS LATE...
i can explain!!!! i set my alarm clock.. but i accidentally pressed P.M. so alarm was @ 10P.M. so... yea i woke up at 2.. hehe..
had to go.. so we just waited for time to pass then we went to find so wen i reached there, they were almost done with the photo album thing.. hehe.. then terrence had to go off.. so we met lou's brother's gf... and passed it to her.. =)
After that we decided to just chill.. =) so we went to eat at popeyes to eat and we then just talked and chill till night and went home....

Friday, 25TH September 2009...
F1 IS HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Work at the GRID BAR!!!!!...
so its day one.. and like always.. me being very emotic and quiet...=/
but things started to get better.. as the gals from the other side started to talk to us..
and F1 cars start Zooming pass.. =)
but after 5 mins.. i got sick of it.. haha.. anyway..
then we started to get used to the machines and all.. BUT with night fall.. we it was rather boring and tiring.. so.... we started to shout: "TIGER!!!! $8!!!!!!" it was fun!!! funny and all...

Saturday, 26th September 2009...
2nd day of work.. and because of the first day... i started to bond and i felt like work was ended to quickly... it was fun chatting with them telling cold jokes.. and by this day cecilia brought her speakers.. WOOO it really changed things and also SNACKS! a lot of things really happened and we had a lot of fun!!!! =)))

Sunday, 27TH September 2009...
Its the last day of work.. and i really felt very sad cause i dont want this to be hi bye friends thing.. i hope we will continue to hang out... and by this day, everyone was comfortable with each other.. and we really just talk to each other like we were friends for a long time... it is indeed fun.. and i hope we will still be good friends..

this is almost all of us!! =)))

=))
Just goofying around with the speakers.. haha!

Monday-thursday, 28th-1st oct.
Actually i wrote alot but then it was this blogger which made it dissappear.. but oh well..
just know that we had fun in the chalet and whheeee ya....
So that will be all for this post... thanks for reading...

Over NIghttttt

2009-09-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

YESTERDAYYYY....

Lets just talk about the night... HEHE
in short.. Went to terrence's house...
AHAH
the good thing is his house i so near to MINE!!!!
=)))
but the bad thing is i part from everyone so fast.. at his house gate.. LOL haha

We really did a lot of things there..
When we first reach there, we just sat down and i started running with elysia, and sherie... reason? cause they wanted to tickle me... so i ran and ran and ran and so did they.. haha

then we all sit at the table and started playing cards and games till the drinks went out... then ely, me, marilou and terrence when to play CS.. while the rest played dare or dare.. HAHA and i heard they did a lot of whacked out stuff.. haha and LOU and i joined in for 2 rounds. and one of the round was i set the dare and choose 3 people and
the dare: lick the person's hand...
People: keith, marilou and Queen.
HAHAHAHA dam funny... and so queen said keith's hands are salties... AHHAHAA

then we went back to playing and so on.. after awhile... some people just got very tipsy... and yes.. you know what happens.. so... then LOU, me and ELY just sat by the pool talking... it was really really nice.. just so... relaxed and jut speak your mind... =)
then we joined jia yan and liang after that and soon the rest joined.. so we talked thru the night.. =)) it was nice.. =))))

so went home at around... 8! and slept till 1.. when i was supposed to be in school by 1 to meet amin, erdie and zi wei.. so yea.. i was 1 hour late!!! then we practically wasted time today bit we laughed.. lol..

and now i am home and i played black shot with terrence, LOU and ELY just now.. so addicted to it...

tmr still have to go school.. =( sadded to tired lah!!!

last min organising..

2009-09-12T01:03:00.002+08:00

The last min outing turned out rather well i should say...

It all started last night when FB came along...

so i just put on my wall asking who wants go out and then queen and jia yan replied.. so yes.. i planned to go out.. at first. chloe, renice, jia yan, liang yu, queen and I were on about this and said going and terrence and elysia said they will join us later.. and ya..
but when morning came.. sms came in too.. queens and chloe could not go.. =( SIAN!
so i was left with... renice, jia yan, liang and me...

when i reached there Keith MAGICALLY appeared.. so yea.. it was the 5 of us.. we went round vivo with nothing to do.. so we headed down to ion.. and shopped alittle and chilled in BK! hahah ate there ans talked and rot.. that was like the meeting place.. OH YA! the reception there is dam bad!!!!! people thought i cut their phone.. i am such a nice boy *don't cough* why will i cut the phone call!?!?! =(hahaha so yes.. everything was cleared out...

so.. then while we were there.. terrence came.. then hellvan came and went in 5 mins. then renice went off too. and elysia came.. and we went to play LAN, L4D again! hahha. quite fun cause it was not too long. just 2-3 hrs.. haha and headed home!!

TMR GOING IT SHOW!!! SO HAPPPY.....GOING TO GET MY EXTERNAL HARD DRIVE!!!
and i think i am going to see a lot of people... hahaha cause i heard a lot of people working there haha! woots.. so fun.. going with keith, liang, renice, chloe, queen, and i think jia yan too hahaha =)))) wheeee

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I was just thinking... did being judgemental bring us to where we are for the good or for the worst?

Well apparently walking home made me think...sometimes when we are travelling, we want to ask people for directions, obviously we will look at who to ask.. i mean if you ask someone which looks like he is unhappy with everything, you might get a beating.. so does that mean judging helps save you?
or does it just spoil your perceptions towards somethings? well, maybe the person is not who he looks like? but because we judge so much, we have a error in the way we see this person even when we don't know him and this might cause you to lose someone you might be very good friends with..
so is it good to judge or not to? to put away your "ways of seeing people" or to give them a chance to know them before anything which includes taking risks, if the person is just out there to.. CHEAT....

well, that's all i have for now.. don't want to make it too draggy a post.. so yes.
thanks for reading and.. =)
hahahah

its ben awhile.

2009-09-08T22:28:00.003+08:00

OHHHH.. its been sometime since i last blogged..

so i stopped at talking about the first day of camp.
so now i will talk about the 2ND day of camp..
IT WAS SO DAM FUN..
i mean so what happened first i guess.. was all game and all.. had some conflict but shall not dig deep into that.. the most memorable one is the talent night. AKA camp fire.
well having that skit.. that group.. the skit was really awesome.. it was one of the best one.. i hope to see it soon.. cause its recorded!!!!
and when i have it i think i will up it up.. haha and also the other vid of the entire camp. all the pictures.. so thats why the seniors did for us. yea.. and i really had a great time laughing non stop!
DAM JOKE! hahaha well people which were there also know.. and laugh.. AWESOME MAN!!! haha

This is everyone on day 2. =/

KEROPOK!!

oh ya.. i cant believe i wont best actor! LOL and our group EXTRINSIC won the best cheer.. HAHAHA and KEROPOK won first place OVERALLLL!!! WOOTS....
well, congrats to hellvan for being the BEST CAMPER. hahah =)))

so moving on... it was a busy week ahead man!!! so after the camp.. we terrence,korean and i went to the west side to slack awhile and then went home and since terrence stay so near my place he dropped me off at his place which was the old TATLEE COURT!!!! so as i walked down the road to home.. i was like a mad man.. saying "OH..AH.." and so on cause it reminds me of so many thing!!! like.. ya! hahah.

And the NEXT DAY!!!!
reach orchard at 9am!!!! when i slept at 1plus.. HEHE.. yea.. for CUSTOMER SERVICE TRANING thing.. haha with all the cashiers!!!!! meet rather nice people.. having different passions.. but then some abit dao maybe cause i don't know them.. so yea.. well. and the course was fun! having team work.. and all then had this skit part which i did not too good... haha i think.. not amusing or anything but i hope everything went well.. and i don't know who rated me!!! =( i really want to know!! hahh cause the person seems nice unlike me.. giving another person 2 sad face. =| oh well.. haha hope to meet them again! hahah FUN FUN FUN!

and after the course, went to orchard to meet michelle and went to amk to meet Zolene and went to MAl's birthday BBQ in the east.. well his friends were there and there were very nice people.. cooking for us, showing magic but sadly.. i was not really talking to them cause i really don't know them!!! hahaha yea.. but we went for a short while only.. so yea..then cause we miss the last bus.. called DADDDY to pick us up and i really have to say a BIG BIG BIG THANKS TO HIM FOR DROPPING EVERYONE EVERYWHERE! cause it was all over the place! hahahah and home i went!

6TH SEPT 2009.
MET si jia and ryan.. went to ion and ryan shopped for clothes and stuff then we just walked around than went to plaza sing to eat ans then to Clark quay to chill out.. of a long time then went home.. so we talked a lot remembered a lot and know more.. it might seem short but then it was surely meaningful and then jasden hoe came to join us in clementi's macs and we chill and went home..

7TH SEPT 2009!!!
meet group 1.3.5.7. and went to marina.. and BOWLEDDD hahaha had fun.. cause its been awhile since i bowled lah!!!! hahhah.. FUN FUN FUN.. after that we went to pizza hut and ate.. after eating.. we called for the bill and the guy returned us what we paid and said what was our change and at first we wanted to go off but then being kind heard.. sab and I went back to give.. and it was a communication break down so yea..
after that we went to.... camwhore.. pics in FB!! hahaha YAY REACHING MY 1000 MARK! ok.. anyway then we went to play L4D haha dam fun.. but after awhile boring ard.. so yea... but played for 3 hrs! WOOTS and after that everyone left.. and only me, terrence, sherie and I so we went to Terrence's place to chill and we talked, played mahjong and then.. sheri went off.. yea and i was there till morning.. hahah and ya.

came home after that bath and went out to meet zi wei and amin.. then ya... came home and went out to eat dinner and now home.. chatting bout the 1.3.5.7. OUTING!!! WOOTS! hahah FUN!

so thats all i've got.. its LONG! so thanks for reading and hope u keep reading! LOL haha

Jive camp, day 1!

2009-09-03T22:28:00.002+08:00

Its been a few days since i blogged.. so yes.

I'm gonna skip those days which i did not blog cause nothing much happened i guess.

TODAY! it was ultra fun.. cause of all the people I met... cant believe that I thought of not going.. But it was really awesome!!! meeting them.. i can only remember the guys names.. and some gals.. Terrence, Queen, Korean, pei qi, liang yu, priscilla, marilou, and i guess this is all i can remember for now.. but there will still be tomorrow! and Renice was there too!

So let me elaborate on today...
So i reached school late.. kinda sucks.. i mean i felt sucky.. but guess what!? I WAS THE FIRST TO REGISTER! haha imagine that! well then it stared off really moody like no one was in the mood at all and there were so little people. =( but it was still dam fun.. then we played some ice breaking games then got our group name... EXTRINSIC! haha LOL but its cool "EX" and our cheer!! hahah thought so dam hard about it.. anyway.. moving on.. we had.. to make our own arm band and all...and then there was some small funny games.. and WE HAD SO MUCH FUN TALKING ABOUT "DA BAO/DUAH BAO!" HAHAHA DAM FUNNY! this is seriously the part which makes me laugh like shit and made me so darn happy today!
so yea.. then was the amazing race thing.. rather fun thou.. had memory games and all.. =) hahaha sadly no pictures.. will take with almost everyone tomorrow man!!! =) i hope! AHAH
so we also thought of the skit and all.. and yea.. hope to have funn as in MORE FUN tomorrow! =) happy happy me! haha..

and after that we just hang out.. the gals group and guys group which merge.. the few of us went to CWP and ate at yoshinoya!!!! and I FOUND MORE PEOPLE STAYING IN THE WEST AREA MAN! GREEN LINE!!!! HAHAH and terrence stays so darn near me =)))... ok.. so yea. and then terrence, Korean, marilou and I went to IMM to walk around.. then we actually talked a lot and marilou and terrence apparently like to picking up toys thing... the.. i dont know how to say also.. but yes.. surprising actually..

and now i am home.. so thats pretty much all for today.. looking forward to tomorrow!!!!

2009-09-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

its past 12 and so its safe to blog..
its cause this post is all about AIZAT and its his birthday as of after 12..
so, i want to just wish Aizat a very happy birthday and may all your wishes come true..
and i think this is the 3rd time i have said this.. but i am still going to say it.
from the bottom of my heart...
I know that it has been a blessing to know you as my friend. and as of today, i know that there is alwasy someone there which i can trust and rely on anytime which i am feeling down.. so i really hope that things will still remain this way and be even better friends then before....

so about today.. we went out with aizat and the rest.. which is about 17 of us? and we really had a lot of fun... going for dinner all together.. but first..

i met aizat, erdie, ziwei, daryl, and ashwin.. then we went to play pool.. so half way thru... the gals, alexis, ida, lynn and yani came... so yea.. then we headed to arnold's and Q.. but failed to do so.. then we just went all over.. and yea... in the end.. amin, jie ying, yu juan, michelle, jocie, ron and jodie came to join us.. *SURPRISE!!!* well yea..
then we went to look for food.. went to the seafood place and.. yea it was nice.. and had cake.. then we walked around the place.. and then chill in macs and went home... hehe

everything is kinda cut short.. alot of other things happened also but.. this is just the brief thing..

so, once again.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIZAT!
and my sms cant get thru to you.. i don't know why...
and i cant call you.. so.. i will keep trying to send... hehe

thats all i have... thanks for reading.. =)

purely my feelings..

2009-08-29T23:31:00.002+08:00

Sorry people but this post is going to be boring cause its all about how i currently feel...

but actually i dont know what to feel.. i feel so lost these days..
sometimes i feel like its a whole new change.. like i am being replaced.. when you see someone else is being chosen over you.. you were never known to them again...
when they tell you not to assume you dont... but it turns out they themselves assume.. with a bad excuse...
Am i not good enough? are there major flaws in me? will i be accepted once again? the feeling of me drifting further and further is appearing each day like the scar after being cut and then the scalp appears later... being more and more obvious.. i hope that sometimes things change for the better and not worst.. i am being let go for something else...

another feeling of helplessness.. hopelessness.. brings me down again.. being able to see and yet i know that there is nothing that i can do, there will be no result in this its like.. hoping, wishing but yet knowing that if i am realistic.. the hopes and dreams would never come true...

best of both worlds would never come to me.. its either.. or... never both... how perfect can one's life be?
being rich = not close family ties
having close family ties = not rich..
can this rule not apply?

hopes everything turns to the better side..

moody me

2009-08-28T21:56:00.002+08:00

ok it has been 2 days since i blogged..
thou its not very long but i just have no moody to blog these days...

Anyway.. i will just briefly talk about what happened these 2 days..

Yesterday!
met up with Amin in the morning and then meet annabel, HH and BK in the evening..
went to catch the proposal.. and it was a good movie..
worth watching thou the ending was quiet expected but then it was still very nice... funny.. touching.. so.. should go watch!

And today since i had nth on, i went to meet paul.. went to his house and chilled and after that headed to town...
he went for a hair cut which was a long as i could study the history of Germany!!!
and after which I GOT MY MIGHTY MOUSE!!!! *rather happy boy now*
and paul bought a $10 bar of chocolate.. it was really good!!! but rather costly.. i kinda forgot the shop name.. but the packaging was very unique and nice.. so if you are rich.. can go buy the chocolate there!=/
and i was looking for my green t-shirt but could not find one..
instead i found my bro's WANTS "john mayer's CD" so i got it for him...
and we headed back to paul's house and he ate, i chilled and did something which scared the shit out of the both of us...
so... it was just horrifying.. dont mention what is it man!
then i went home and here i am!..

well, i dont know why but i have been feeling rather down these days..AHHHHH
i need to be happy.. =(
well, thats all i have.. thanks for reading abt my life.. LOL

regretment day 1: its getting better.

2009-08-26T12:31:00.010+08:00

Its... Regretment day 1..but! its getting better! =)

so.. ITS THE END OF UT! END OF LESSONS!

rather happy its like holidays already! finally, stay home, watch tv, use com, watch HONG KONG DRAMA ON THE NET! wah!!!!!!

I am starting to miss E35E already...
ANYWAY! i shall talk about yesterday! rather... nice, fun and all day.. hahaha
it all started off with...ENDING OF COMMUNICATION UT3!!!
and then there was somethings going of at our level so we went down stairs and made more noise! and took pictures!!!

CLASS PHOTO! E35E!

ALL THE GUYS MANS!!!!

Awesome! anyway.. after that taking all the pics, people going off one by one..

it was left with erdie, amin, ziwei, me, lynn, alexis, fiza*i dont knwo how to spell*, yani, sean, teresa, ida, and aizat.. so we all walked to the mrt station...
but teresa had to go and fly off back to India! and zi wei, erdie and aizat was not joining us.. so, erdie, ziwei and teresa took the same bus.. and aizat took the same bus as us... but of course he alighted earlier.. and in the bus, sean, amin and ida slept... and lynn, alexis and I were talking and fiza and yani talking.. so that was the bus ride..
BUGIS!
so we reached bugis and then went to coffee bean and just chilled there used com, take pics with web cam.. then we went off after long hrs there..
Amin had to go home and breakfast at home.. and sean went off as welll..
so the gals, ida, alexis lynn and i went to meet jodie.. to go for dinner!!! and we walked to far east plaza and ate at the nana thai restaurant.. the food was GOOD... really nice.. and we had a lot of fun! talked a lot and all..

Group photo! and the food!*all eaten!*

After eating.. we decided we wanted... durian pancakes!!!! we were all so exited.. but very full so we decided to walk around first then go to taka for it..
and we went to Ion!! and so our surprise.. we bumped into...
michelle, malcol, wentint, yu juan, jie ying and nadiya and we found this nice place with reflection and got the picture below!

FUNNN!

and then we all walked to taka.... but sadly.. by then the shop was closed.. so we din have our pancakes.. then jie ying, wenting and nadiya had to go off.. so yes... then was left with us! and we went outside ion to take pictures!

Hmmmm hahahas

guess where were we pointing to?

TADA... we were pointing to LV! hahaha

obsession of LV...

so, that was basically yesterday... and i guess today will be all about HONGKONG DRAMA! but! have to go buy cake for my DADDDY!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!!! hahas...

well, thats all i've got...
thanks for reading! =)
29 days to F1
32 days to chalet!!!!!

tmorrow is the last day.

2009-08-24T20:17:00.002+08:00

Maths... how good do you feel when you hear this...
well to me its not good at all.. esp when i just had the maths UT today! and i really don't think i did good one bit.. i seriously just dumped in all the numbers i could find... or i could.. =/

so.. tomorrow is the last paper, communication skills and i have yet to study it.. so i have to really read through and understand it later.. just taking a break and blogging i guess..

Well, so after the ut, we just stayed back and chill... chatted and all.. with alexis, ida, amin, aizat, ziwei, erdie, iqbal, yani...
then we went to the canteen and saw teresa.. and we asked her to join us in chilling out in the library and we chat till 4plus 5? and went to CWP popular and also the cold storage.. and then home.. so yes...

rather excited that the UT is going to be over...i mean cause it means the chalet is nearing!!!!

ok, i might sound dam dead for this post, mostly cause i am... well, have been thinking too much lately.. its like the last few days of class together.. then also.. the day i will start to regret starts.... AHHHHHHH! stupid shit ah!

I know what amin and aizat are driving me to these days.. and i think you guys are really good and nice friends.. thou flawed in own ways, you never fail to cheer me up and help me out.. it really ment a lot to me... thou it was a joke, it made me laugh like i would never have that laugh again... to be able to take the burden with me and bother about it, knowing that it would be a part of me, every second, and know that i will feel better if i know you remember it... I am really lucky to have the two of you as the very good friends of mine.. and of course other friends of mine are important, but i now know who i can really let my troubles off to when i feel like i was stuck in the ocean...

like it have been saying:
1 more UT

1 more day till end of UT
1 more day till holiday

1 more day till E35E don't have class together
31 more days to F1
34 more days to chalet!
and tomorrow is the very day that i will start to regret... and i don't think i am going to do anything about it.. cause i know, unless a miracle happens, it will be the way i planned it to be.. just like.....THAT..

i guess i don't really have much to say these days except regretting and all.. sorry for boring you.. but yes.. will be better next post.. *i hope* soooo...
that's all I've got, thanks for reading.. and chill out..

FACIAL DAY...

2009-08-22T22:50:00.002+08:00

BUAH!!!!!
*i don't know what it means but then yes...*

so... i was about to study today.. but of course I din.. but its for a good reason.. i think..
I WENT TO GET MY OIL SEEDS OUT OF MY FACE!!!!.. so dam happy...

let me tell you the whole process...
well it just started randomly when my mum said my oil seeds have to be taken off.. so we went to find.. find find.. and she got to go to the place...
so it was about 2? then I went there and yes.. she said it could be done! so happy.. and in the ends.. it is said that my black heads would be removed... and i was so darn happy!!!..

but the process was really pain.. ='(.
it was actually soso lah... its like squeezing your face really hard.. or, having a needle and just poke your face!.
i was tearing lah.. really.. then she kept helping me clean and continue.. but it was like pain till you tear kind but i was fine.. i think hehe...
and now my face is like super red dotted.. cause its blooded.. hahas..
I WANT IT TO HEAL SOON!!!!
ok.. so.. that was end of "facial"

and now... after facial we (dad, mum and I) went to check out what my dad heard "marina south... something is done up" and all we found was the place i wanted to go so bad.. MARINA BARRAGE!!!! so my first time going to marian barage was with my parents!!!

MAMA & I! hehes

ANd its nice there after only everything have been done up... hmmms. yes... so we just walked there and a lot of people were there.. then we went home to pick my bros from home.. to go eat dinner, celebrate dad's birthday in advance.. and we went to the secret place.. hahah dam far away.. at pungol.. or however u spell it..so yes.. it was a buffet steamboat.. not really good lah.. but ok... not that bad.. rather cheap.. but then cause it was raining, it was so chaotic!!! yes.. but they had one nice song there.. "U r man" i listen till super happy... AHAH!

and now i am home.. blogging... and so on.. not studying yet..
i will... tmr.. hahas.. *procrastinator*

2 more UT
3 more days till end of UT
3 more days till holiday

3 more days till E35E don't meet in class.
3 more days till totally regretting..

33 more days to F1

36 more days to chalet!

so... that's all I've got... hopes that hopes will turn into reality...

WHY DO I KEEP THINKING THAT YOU ARE SOMEONE WHICH WILL LISTEN TO ME WHEN I FEEL LIKE DYING? CAUSE I KNOW YOU JUST WONT TAKE EVEN 10 MINUTES OFF WHATEVER YOU ARE DOING TO LISTEN...

Sensitivity.

2009-08-21T23:21:00.003+08:00

So, its Friday...

and cognitive just ended and i basically bullshit.. =/

don't want to talk about it lah. ARGH.

anyway... these days i just feel like i am back to my old self.. being so dam sensitive... but i guess that's whats just in me

i have no idea why but I am just so sensitive to everything.. having friends ignore me is the thing which really makes me feel this way.. like sometimes when you just want to talk to them and they are so darn busy with talking about other things. or even doing other things...

its like... when you feel so down, you just want someone which you can trust to be there.. to just listen patiently.. and give really nice and constructive solutions where by you feel like you've been saved.. but the feeling i always get is to just bottle these things up and hide in the Conner of my room with the laptop... just so i will be on standby if anyone of them comes online and makes me feel that little bit better...

I don't know what am i to do now.. its just... like that.. and somehow, i am lost...

2 more UT
4 more days till end of UT
4 more days till Holiday.

34 more days to F1
37 more days to chalet...

answers, fall from the sky?

STILL in regrets..

2009-08-19T19:40:00.004+08:00

Sorry to say that i have not been blogging much lately.. but so much has happened...

like..

1)changing class
2)Chalet coming
3)UT 3 has started
4)thinking about some problems and it just keeps popping up...*in process of regretting*

So.. the very first thing which of course saddens everyone would be the changing of class.. after bonding so much with the class and so much has happened between us... every single day and its really like what Ida says:" they never fail to surprise us" there would definitely be something which they do that makes us remember that we are and will always be one family in school. And i can say right now that its impossible to forget this class ever, because its every little thing that i do that i will remember of them... even my laptop... somethings on the desktop wont ever change.. or should i say, i wont want to change it ever... this is something which i will never forget...

CHALET IS COMING... but apparently i think we talk too much about it till we are like so sian about it.. AHHHH but i am still excited about it... about us coming together and doing stuff together... this is one thing that is distracting me for studying the UT but then that would not be the main thing.. the main thing is that i don't understand and i am so tired.. but talk more abt it.

So... UT has started and you might wonder why am i still blogging? but i do miss blogging and just talking to myself.. LOL... cause every time i am on my way home i will think of that to add in the post. HEHE... anyway! back to UT.. the thing which is distracting me is that i am thinking of so many things but UT and i don't understand so many things and also i cant study on some days and also i am so tired. like super shag lah!

And now... i am thinking of this song...

3 DOORS DOWN- HERE WITHOUT YOU.

so anyway.. yes.. this is like how i feel so much now.. but then point is i don't know why i am listening to the lyrics so much that i always put them in my post! AHHH but then.. yes i think music is one way of me remembering things and also when the words are meaningful and it relates to my life.. i would definitely turn emo and think of things which saddens me and honestly, its not always bad to emo cause you will really think and reflect..

I see it in those eyes like there was nothing in there for me.
I envy those which stand by you..
I wonder when will i know you.
I think of when i will see you again...

Regrets fill my mind as each day pass its not the end of the full regret yet but after a number of days more, I will really regret.. but maybe it was to be like this... who knows?
When some people say that "there is your soul mate out there" someone is made for you, then when will you know if that person comes by? will you just sit and wait and assume that someone will tell you the answers? I sure wish there were answer sheets to life.. but not all answers are provided just some..

1 UT paper has ended.
4 more to go..
4 more days to leave the class..
4 more days to holiday...
4 more days to really regret..
39 more days to chalet...

regrets regrets that i know will come and i know that i will regret yet i have no courage to make this regret go away...

if you read everything, thanks for reading if you don't like my blog, blog post and all, then sorry just don't read then... i hope that people will read because they want to not cause they are forced to.. i hope that they can think about what i post and maybe sometimes come to senses for their own life.. so yesh..

home sweet home..

2009-08-15T22:48:00.002+08:00

I was planning to go meet Zi wei, erdie and Amin today to study... but the news din come in.. so i was home rotting.. but luckily, i don't know why but my 2 brothers were home and awake! so it was a rather good feeling t have them home and awake ans just scolding each other and telling each other stuff.. cause it seldom happens around here.. so yea i loved it.. haha

something stupidly funny happened thou... well, you see my bro just made the table outside his "office" so yea.. then he got his pencil holder thing there and all the pens and pencils were really nice looking and all but only one.. those kind which you by at the pri school book shop 2b pencil and then my eldest bro said it look very ugly there.. and so mr jaden hoe took it and just aimed at the opened window.. and he asked: "i throw ah!" so i replied: "throw lah!" and he did.. 2 seconds after the threw it out the window.. my eldest bro turned and said "EH! thats an expensive pencil leh! its a sketching pencil! very special one!" and so jasden hoe got really stunned and he went down to pic it back up! hahaha it was really some kind of a joke.. i was watching the whole thing and i kept laughing! JOKE OF THE DAY!!!!

and so yea... did some work.. and.. we, mum, dad, me, jasden went out for dinner..went all the way down to east coast to eat dude! hahaha it was such an emo trip there.. like no one talked.. and i was really in the mood to emo.. so i did.. and felt dam good! OH YES! went there and finally i found someone which like to listen to SHINee- REPLAY!!!! i heard HIM *and its a GUY!!!*so i mean like.. its s hard to find a guy which like SHINee songs.. but i din approach him or anything la.. just listened to it as he played it on his PSP... haha.. and waiting for a table.. then we ordered so much... satay beehoon, wonton mee.. chicken wings and drinks...it sounds little but it was a lot!!! and then we went back home.. but the trip home was full of talking till i felt it was such a fast journey home.. hahah! nice!

and now here i am blogging and i am to actually study for the UT!!! AHHHHHH

tmr going to study with yani, amin, erdie and ziwei in schoool =)

3 days to end of week 15
3 days to UT3
10 days to holiday
10 days left with E35E
more sad then yesterday...

What am i going to do?

oh yes.. i just want to say thanks to all the people on fb and twitter which saw my comments or posts and ask if i am ok and whats it all about... but i think i am fine.. i should be...
so yes... but i don't know what to do.. its left with 10 days and i don't know whats going to happen...
i don't know what should i say.. what should i do.. what should i think...
emosified cause of that very view....

Mooncake day...

2009-08-14T21:24:00.002+08:00

Today is gonnna be the day
That they'er gonna throw it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now..

and blah blah blah..

just me being random on the things that i have just felt like singing...

So... Its been several days since i bloggged... and yea.. have always been hanging around with the same people.. and i'm loving it...

I would actually just talk about today.. we were basically.. planning the chalet the entire day!!! but the fun part in class was during the 2nd break...

It was just like 4 of us putting up a show for the class to see cause we played blind mice in class. of course there were boundaries and it was only in the front of the class.. and we have to blind fold the person and they find us.. so i was FIRSTTTT.. and it was rather difficult but i managed to catch lynn and in the end i din get it anymore and it was the rest of them... and LYNN as trying to catch me all along but I was super sneaky.. hahahs she almost touched me but i lie flat on the ground and just slither past her.. so many times.. and i din get caught so many times cause i hid behind the door.. is in the Conner of the class.. ahha super funny.. its really 1cm more and they would have caught me.. but i ESCAPED!!! haha dam fun!

and after school was like really talking about chalet and fortunately we have collected most of the cash.. but the problem is that...i feel we are kinda messy now but there is really gona be a lot of things going on.. so watch out E35E!!!!

and after that at around 5? 6? we went to CWP and ate.. it was super early dinner but i am still full.. i wonder why... anyway.. after eatting chicken rice add rice and add egg, i ate dessert!!! it was niceee hahah.. and after that we went to cold storage to survey the place.. as in the food.. so ya.. and on the way there.. amin was asking every stall if hey sell mooncakes.. the apple strudel and the bah zhang stall auntie... asking them.." mooncake?" and the just say no... MY GOSH.. it was really funny lah!!! hahha..

so after that we went homme and here i am!!!!

MIKA-GRACE KELLY

well.. i was just listening to this song... and its pretty much how i feel... asking myself so many questions... esp the part of " why dont you like me. why dont you like me without making me try?" its like.. seriously what people want...

we all just look out the window so see that someone.. to always notice their every move... its not that we are desperate ( or i think that you are not) just that it interests us so much to just want to know more of you... and its just a feeling like you are a stalker but it melts you heart just to take the extra glance.. wishing that he/she did too.. that would just fry your heart.. to know that glances were exchanged wont it?

But of course the possibility of you liking and him/her liking you would be that slim... esp when i consider myself... ARGH.. but its just something that makes your legs wobble.. keeps your mind filled with "IF"..and imagination just turns wild..

One thing that always puzzles me is how could you not know the person and feel such things for that person.. like... take for example, you have a room and you place a glass panel in the middle and you are on one side and the other person is on the other side.. its like a one way glass.. you can see him/her but she/him cant see you.. (and in real life its cause he/she don't want to see you... =( )anyway... so.. since that person cant see you, he/she wont communicate with you so you wont know him personality.. but every second you look at him/her, you will just feel its so sweet and you want to just say hi but you cant. (not cause he/she cant see you but cause you don't have the guts to and you don't know how he/she feels if you say hi) and you just fall for it.. feeling all gooey and sweet and melted.. WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!

i keep wonderin WHY bring something to you when you cant have it.. =/

its only 4 days till end of week 15
4 days to UT3
11 days to holiday
11 days left with E35E

its saddens me... argh!

well that all i've got.. so yea..

i shall blog soon..

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SOCCERRRR...

2009-08-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

sorry all.. i have not blogged since national day (not very long ago actually)

But i don't know why, i will try to make it a point to blog every day unless i am super duper tired.. thou i am right now, i miss blogging already..

7 days and counting...

so.. YESTERDAY!!! it was the Monday and we had a HOLIDAY!!! so it was ment to be a study day but it din turn out so much to be study...

Met Amin and Yani in pasir ris.. its really far for me.. but luckily, mama and papa sent me there.. ahahs LOL! so we met at 11 am. and the first thing we did was tot eat ananas... that was branch. haha it was super filling then we went to macs to study and din buy anything there.. hehe but we moved off after a rather short time.. and then we went to the downtown east mcCafe.. hahaha because the macs din have a plug.. and the plugs in downtown east McCafe was taken! so we walked all over but in the end we went back to macs the one in downtown east..and by the end of the day we finished one problem in maths... hahah how... sad.. and we went to chillout at the pasir ris park... and laughed a lot.. really had fun.. and then we went pass the mangrove swamp and back to ananas for DINNERRR... and went home.. and reached home at around 10? so its almost the entire day!!! but only did one problem... hehes...

so this was in a nut shell but there was definitely more and it was More fun then it sounds!!! hahahs... had a great time...

And today was a much better day lah! hahas.. everyday is better with E35E! =) i love them to death!...

So.. it started with me meeting and taking the "school bus" LOL! hahah yea!!! not that fun there but it was cool to meet them in the morning... then we went to class and saw VICTOR.. haha.. woots... cause i know its going to be fun.. and it apparently is... we had this draw a logo for the class and it was really fun and meaningful... then every group presented and i found some really nice and meaningful... the bond within us just makes us like super glue like amin's group said... and we will forever sing!!! and after school we planed to study.. but in the end we did 3 questions and got emo on changing class... then after that..6PM was soccer... hahahs.. for people which dont know me... I DONT PLAY SOCCER.. so i din.. then everyone played and we say jocie, michelle, malcolm and ellito.. hahas.. then the guys played tilll it rained and when it rained, they still played.. and everyone else left.. except us.. then after everyone left, they asked CX and I to play!!!! and i found it FUNNN hahahs... i don't know why.. i never did like football but i just enjoyed it a hell lot.. =)

I ENJOYED SOCCER!!! GREAT ACHIEVEMENT... WOOTS!!!!

thats not the end of the day... like i said.. when u leave E35E guys in the toilet.. you will have a lot of things happening.. and its very fun!! well.. today i dont know why but there was alot of IGs so after we went to the toilet, people started to come in.. and us being crazy and super hyper.. se just start singing songs.. we are really like the entertainers of the toilet! then when we sang the ah mo to fo song.. the parying one.. we sang like dam loud with new beats.. and when we stopped... we realised that the other side of the toilet, someone else was singing along. it that was really funn!!! hahaha and we sang songs like stand by me and also lucky... it was dam fun lah... even on the way to CWP we also sang songs.. and tmr we are going to bring in a new song...

so after reaching CWP we went to eat at horizon food mall and talk about the chalet... CANT WAIT FOR IT!

ITS 7 day... and counting.. i mean its like 1 week left... we are all so dam sad.. i am sure that we will always remember each other... to have so many things in mind.. like to have the songs, randomly made everyday... something new will come out.. it a really random class which we all like.. we all bond so fast and we keep it this way.. AND IF YOU ARE FROM E35E 2009, PLEASE READ THIS... THE UPCOMING CHALET MIGHT BE THE LAST ONE TILL WE CHANGE CLASS AND THERE MIGHT BE SO MUCH GOING ON.. AND THE PEOPLE PLANNING IT REALLY PUT IN A LOT OF EFFORT SO PLEASE.. CO-OPERATE WITH US AND SOMETIMES SOMETHING WE ASK FROM MIGHT BE DEMANDING BUT IT IS ACTUALLY AFTER A LOT OF THOUGHTS SO.. HOPE THAT YOU ALL WILL COME FOR IT AND BE A PART OF THIS HAPPY MOMENT THAT WE MIGHT HOLD... i really don't wish to change class thou i know that there might be something better for me up ahead.. but its what i love there that determines how i feel now...

I am melting inside out every time...*AHHHHH*

so, thats all i've got.. thanks for reading..

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BOREDOME on national day..

2009-08-09T14:04:00.003+08:00

HOLY TAMOLY...

i'm freaking bored.. thats why i am here to blog.. i have absolutely nothing to do except emo-ing.. and i do hate to do that but after last night.. its just like me stranded on a island trying to get away.. but there would not be a sloution....

I tried everything i could..

-going on facebook to play games,

-thinking of studying (but you should know.. i wont)

-going into myyearbook to see if there was anything (anyone) intresting...

-twitted a hell lot...

-youtubed my afternoon but its not even half way thru...

what more can one do? and no one to chat with...

this national day i will be alone.. maybe with my sleeping brother but its still counted alone.. watch NDP on tv... and ya..

Is there really something wrong with me? i mean that something wrong as in why some people just leave me.. i really want to know...

its like something so silent yet it brings such pain to me.. it blends in not that perfect thats why i am now in pain.. i really want to know why.. but i wont hang on if the message brought across is clear...i dont know what to do...

i just want to give a special thanks to Aizat for last night... being there for me.. when i really din know what to do...

maybe i should just go out alone.. and roam the streets which no one can see the fireworks from.. then i will be all alone i with my mind to think through...

all i know is that now i will be more sensitve then ever... which is not a good thing but its.. just going to happen... to look at friends like they will leave after sometime... to imagine sometings which wont really happen..

WHAT SHOULD I DO!?

Drink Dank Drunk...when?

2009-08-08T23:09:00.005+08:00

DRINK, DRANK, DRUNK....

so, well let me tell you how this thought came to my mind...

Its a SATURDAY... met up with wan xin and paull.. went to watch..

Yeah! its WHERE GOT GHOST! and i was not bad.. rather hilarious.. but if you want to watch this, you should watch the "money not enough" movie first.. it will be funnier...

So then we just went window shopping and ate at this rather cheap jap food place and headed to wan xin's place and met her sis and bf, and we went downstairs to the park and chatted.. had lots of fun. AHHA

And here come the part... Paul decided to go drinking with this friends (sorry paul) then we tried to tell him not to go but he insisted...

So.. how do you know when are you counted an alcoholic?

I mean, for smoking, if you keep smoking its easy to tell you are addicted and counted a smoker.. but an alcoholic? when will you consider yourself an alcoholic? Is it when you just drink a lot? To drink like... once in 2 weeks but every times its a huge quantity.. is that counted an alcoholic? or do you have to be one which drinks everyday to be counted as one? what is actually the limit that we have to reach...

Because, we will definitely lie to ourselves that we just drink occasionally and so we are not alcoholic.. its just once in awhile.. but what if you are invited to go drinking and no matter how others tell you not to go, you insist on going? will that be counted?

Is there a difference in smoking and drinking? I mean other than the fact that one destroys your lungs and the other destroys your liver.. What other difference is there? Will one be less harmful then the other? Meaning to say that instead of drinking, smoking is better.. or instead of smoking, drinking is better... thou we all know that both is not good...

so, today's post is going to be this short.. but yea.. still thinking about it...

HOPES THAT TOMORROW WILL BE GOING OUT WITH E35E PEEPS!!!

PLS HAPPEN!!! =(

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OH YES! HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!! 44 YO! hahah! =)

Zombie attack?!?!!

2009-08-07T23:39:00.003+08:00

Its been awhile like.. 3 days? since i blogged.. so yea.. here i am!

if you want to know what i've been up to? Then its just hanging out with Amin, Ziwei, Erdie, Aizat, and Iqbal...

hanging out in the class rooms, library.. and doing a lot of fun stuff.. really laughing out guts out.. i just love themmmm!!!!

so today was one of a topic which is long and really exiting..

ZOMBIESSSS...

how it all started? we were actually talking about splitting class (which is indeed saddening) and then we said about events we should just hold to have fun and all.. and then we talked about the chalet and what we want to do in the chalet and one of which was to watch movies!!!! and we started to talk about the different types of scary moviesss one was the zombie one and all the infected and so on...

So.. imagination kicked in!

and we were wondering.. what if it really happened in Singapore? or on earth.. then HOW!? like we were in causeway point while thinking of it.. so we said like... imagine that as we were talking, you hear screaming and shouting and u see zombies eating people and its the kind which run so dam fast.. not the one which goes slowly to you...

Now, where is the best place for us to hide? and so we concluded....

COLD STORAGE!!!! because of the fact that there is a huge stock in FOODDDD and also they have knife and ya.. best place to stay... so we said that we would run down and shut the entire store and then we camp there... and there was definitely a lot more details! so yea... but i'm not going in depth.

but we went to the extend of going to colds storage to find knife and see what we can do? where and how to close the shutters and how near is the DIY shop from there and so on... hahas! it was just hilarious to think that we actually put in so much effort in thinking about this things which is likely to be impossible....

that was basically the end of the Zombie part...

Now i am going to tell you just a little about UNREASONABLE NEIGHBOUR(S)!

well.. from where i stay in right now.. apparently everything that my family does is WRONG.. to them.. and it kinds of irritate me and i think its like... some times, yes we are wrong but then.. its not always.. and gosh! i will tell you more..

So.. first of... it was complaining of us WALKING!... can you believe it? they just come up knocking and saying that we are walking too loudly.. and we honestly did not do it on purpose.. and the first time, we say we are sorry....

Next, they complain about our chairs! saying that we always drag it and causing their son to be unable to sleep... and that was also understandable.. so we did do something about it.. now no more sound..

Now it starts to get irritating when we brought in guitar hero and there was the drum set.. and it was only for 1 DAY! or night.. and they came knocking on the dam door.. and so we put a cloth underneath the drum set.. and they came up again saying that they could still hear.. *was not not in a polite tone i tell you* and my bro was putting his ear to the floor and did not hear anything... so yea.. oh.. sorry this was the 3rd time they came up.. the first time was when they said it was too noisy and so on.. so we like reduced the volume to 30 from 100 *no more fun*.. then the 2nd and third time like i said.

THIS ONE.. which is the most recent.. irritated my mum and i to the max.. The lady downstairs.. complain.. saying that when my mum bath, she wets her window and dirty it.. and now.. you might be thinking how the bloody shit that happens... well.. because sometimes when we shower, the window is part of the shower area... then because its a ledge and the water will just flow out and down.. and when my mum bath, she will wash the toilet a little so obviously the water had no where to go but out.. and the problem is... she says the does not know what water is that.. it might be dirty... and then she also say it wets her house and dirty her window.. so like.. when it rains.. i does not wet it? and so you can tell the rain to not fall? and when we want to wash the toilet, we have to report and ask you? *and once again she was not polite at all!* she said those things in a sarcastic and rude tone... feel like slapping her...

and today... after my mum bath, she wanted to look out to see if it was dripping out.. and it was not.. but to her surprise, what she saw was the lady standing at level 1 and looking up to see if it drips down! HOW SICK IS THAT!? MY GOSH! and it was actually her fault because she changed the sliding window to the push outwards one and so that's why the water will hit the window and "dirty" it in a sense just leaving water marks.. AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE! ITS A TOILET! SO WHAT IF WATER GETS IN AND WET THE TOILET!!!! GOSH!!!

well, that's all i want to say and.. yea.. hope she washes her mouth with chili and learn to speak politely!

BiYATCH!

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21 days and counting...

2009-08-04T22:41:00.003+08:00

OK! (haha what a lousy way to start a post.)

anyway, i think these days i will be blogging almost everyday and its not cause i have nothing better to do.. but its the precious 21 days left in E35E and its all going to be over...

so... i'm counting... 21 more DAYs... =(

today started horribly!!! like super horrible! its as early as 6.30 am!! my brother snatched my blanket away!!!! then it was so cold.. that idiot to i snatched his lah!!! Zzz so yea.. it pissed me off like dam lot cause it was so cold and ya!

then everything was alright till i remembered it was SCIENCE module!!! AHHHH! ok. so ya. it was alright.. and like i said war was to happen in class!! but yesterday's war was more fun.. oh well.. maybe tomorrow will be better.. like we always say.. "but.... ITS BETTER" (with a retarded tone) but the best part of the day was really hanging out with they guys.. Amin, Erdie, Zi wei and Iqbal! really niceeee had fun... and so on... we went to eat.. then went to the library and next was to ARCADE!!!! hahaha then we played the hit-hit game.. I DONT KNOW THE NAME!!! so... like you know? the one? where the table have the air come out then we have to hit the "disc like thing" to the otherside? ya that one! ahah! THEN

we went to the neo print machine and us being to budget. used out own phone to take pics in there *for any reason we might get into trouble with that people this is between you and me... and those which can get me in trouble, SELECTIVE READING hehes THANKS*

TADA!!! LOL!

well if you really feel annoyed it post everyday and you dont like my life, then sorry but just chillax... hahas...

AH YES! i think i am falling in love with blogshopping or even shopping.. so i am a very good target if you want to sell clothes to! hehes!

UT3 IS COMINGGGGG.. DIESSSSS hahah! =(

ok.. anyway thats all i've got..

21 days.. and counting...

thanks for reading!!

E35E war...and my war with my little secret..

2009-08-03T21:03:00.005+08:00

It was... Enterprise and like i said, MR TAN, wont be there... and he really din turn up.. sick. hahahs oh well... and a relief faci came in she was rather good! ahhahas at least she would express her own feelings... yes.. so what was the big thing actually is that there was a WAR in class..
It was just dam funny... in the 2nd break, the guys started to draw stick man on the whiteboard.. unfortunately i cant put up the picture.. anyway.. and then they all started to throw the makers on the whiteboard shelf and aizat standing there was the Target not long after.. and then they started the war.. of trowing anything at each other.. dam funny... then the pres of the class were either the civilians which got accidentally hit or, they were the spectators laughing.. and then they stopped with marker inks all over the class.. hahas.. and when you thought it was over, it started all over again after school and apparently i was a part of it.. ahah! it was really really FUNNNNN!!! it was really anything which they could find, it would be flying from one side of the classroom to the otherside.. haha! and in the end.. all the makers broke like crap and the end result of it was shitty ahahha.. sad makers.. also the vitamin C bottle.. hahahs...

thou its science but there are things planned... thats pretty much all the fun for today.. and tomorrow will be much more fun.. 100%! hahahawooots! hope it all works out!!! and we are going to study after schoool! ahahs

IS THERE THAT LITTLE/BIG SECRET WHICH IS WITHIN YOU?
It just got me thinking... well.. everyone has that little secret right? and sometimes its just something in which you know its going to make a big impact on the people which you are about to tell.. or in other words, it might just make your life different and we always see it on the negative side which it will turn worst...
but there is this urge to always want to just let it out.. let them know, show it in their face that it something, you are something, something is going on in you, you are not just a nobody which has a regular life that some people think it is a fortunate life.. there is always this other side of you in which you are different, you are not the regular you...
And when we think of this "secret" as a problem then we keep thinking of why if fell on me and there are people with a better life out there and why must "this" happen to me? but in actual fact somethings which you feel as problems might not be to the other person and in the other person's little world, your problem would not be worst then his...so this is what its all about...

if you have a problem, then its counted shit.
but your shit might not be his.
and when you get the shit.. the only thing you can do is live with it and move on...shit.

but there is always that thing which i just want to say it to everyone.. let everyone know... not caring of the outcome till it comes cause its not always that outcome which we think it is.. but i cant put myself to actually telling the people which should know... sorry... to both the people i should tell and to myself for not being able to bring out the courage to say it all out...hope i will have it soon and just say it all out...

well, that's all i've got for this post.. hope you guys keep reading and really understand what i am going thru and can relate to urself too...
thanks for reading!

*feels like starting a blogshop but dont know how to... liang hao is a total influencing guy...Zzz*

little sleep and many human errors...

2009-08-02T22:28:00.003+08:00

Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong. Mahjong.

Thats almost all I have got in my brain right now... cause of all the lack of sleep i guess.
So let me tell you the story from where i left off the last time i blogged which was that i was going to mr chan's house with GH, ryan and miss chua and they were going to play mahjong.. and yep i went there and that the start, i was the one playing for mr chan and i lost liekc rap but lucky mr chan won back lah if not i will feel guilty.. so any.. i went that at 8.30 and reached home at 7.45.. imagine that...well at least i was better then them, i did fall asleep for a couple of hours in me chan's house.. while watching tv an eating chips and watching them play... so yea.. hahahs..

but the best part was, when i reached home, i immediately was asked to go fro breakfast.. cool eh? so went all the way down to Chinatown to eat then went home and i used the com... and added that slide thing to my blog!!! if your face is not there, tell me cause i might not have your picture.. or something.. just let me know and its not that i don't want to put your face there!.. so yea.. and i fell asleep while having nth to do... for 1hr? then woke up and got found stuff to do.. hahas.. i am so lame.. but yea.. that's basically my day....

And just yesterday i was thinking... Why is it that the human brain have to be so complexed?
*what i am about to post about is almost the same as Liang hao's blog, so.. yea..*
Anyway.. it was when i saw people giving out flyers and it reminds me of the time when i was at red lacquer and also did the same... so... yea.

the problem was that i was people just ignoring the person giving it out.. not even bother to say" no thanks." well, i think cause its that they don't know how it feels when people do that to you.. and it is just so odd that everyone has to go through that "problem/ thing" before they understand and cherish what they have or should i say they will cherish tings happening.. to be honest, lets take for example house work... after you mop the entire floor don't you just feel its so clean and nice and you don't even want tot step on the floor cause you just don't want your hard work to go to waste? but the problem is that other people don't understand how you feel and they just walk like its not their problem which i find it just.. irritating..

why does the mind have to be so complexed in a must to feel it before you know it? why cant it be based on reliable source? like when someone reliable like your parents tell you something, you just take it in and take it like you really know what is going on and all that then wont it be less complicated an trouble?

well, its so much to think about... Tomorrow is Enterprise and i think MR TAN wont be there. so it might be a relief faci... and OH CRAP! i forgot to do pre-reading.. so going to die...better hurry to read it.. hehes..

that's all i've got, thanks for readin.. hope it does not bore you a lot.. =/

its a bright boring day...

2009-08-01T13:10:00.002+08:00

Its a saturday...

oh yes and i finally managed to change the time to the normal one.. so i wont be putting the date and time there anymore...

ok.. about my previous post.. well acutally, it only came to me after meeting nat at the mrt station and after the long long ride to HOME...

it might be dam right shitty... the feeling sucks.. but i know that everyone will have a shitty feeling somewhere but why is it that some people can live with no worries? Well i came up with one... its that.. i might feel shitty but, i've got to make do with that shit and move one.. so... i will really try not to me so emotional anymore.. try to just let things which are not wanted to go.. if those "friends" dont like me then let them go and you move on...

OH OH OH... i was on twitter and me being curious would click on what i see.. and liang hao and Gabriel put up the link to this video and it was really something...

Wont you want a wedding like that? so fun... so intresting.. so out of this world... its really something to me... and the people in there are really very sporting...

Dont everyone just want to be out of the ordinary? be special... different... is't that nice? get noticed... hahah! well, i hope to be different, outstanding!

AND... YES!

oh! i mean if you are from republic poytechinc's E35E 2009, pls note that if you took and stupid video or pictures with our class just send it to me... i really want a good laugh and those memories.. so... please send ok? =)

Well as we all know, around 2 more weeks of school and 5 weeks of hoiday, we will be in different classes already... and apparently the guys in the class are starting to feel it.. but yea.. really hope those memories could remain here with me foever... and i do hope that eveyone will also remember each other... no matter what part we play in during the lessons, be it blur, hyper or anything. it would mean so much for us that you were there for us to have that joy when we enter the class to want to really go for lessons because we have friends which we love....

ok, i seriously did not intend to write so much but.. well yes that all i've got for this boring afternoon at home which i dont knwo what else i can do now... but night i should be going to meet mr chan, miss chua, ryan and GH.. so it has really been a long while since i met them.. so.. hope that it will be funnnnnn hahahs..... night night night...

DARN after saying that 3 times only 4 seconds passed... =/

so thats all i've got for now.. hope you guys keep reading and hope you like to read my blog.. please tag... thankss =)))))

Its the joy that you have for those moments.

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It the joy that you have for those moments..

Ever felt like you were in heaven? Like this is this time which there was nothing but innocent laughters filling up the mind in which you thought you had? The kind of happiness that people around you give you.. like you were a part of them.. so close to them... Wishing that it would alwasy stay this way and nothing would be different...

but only in 20 minutes time did you know that there would be a point in time where by you were never known to them again.. like being pushed back to the time where no one really cares... not the same old people... you give up something for another something and yet you lose both because you never really thought about how much it would affect you.. how much things would change in how short a time that is. It would all happen so quickly that you never really knew anything...

Lost in the loneliness hoping to be someone which they would turn back and really care for.. even the littlest of calling out your name would be so much of the happiness to you.. like it would make your world a better place.. it would fill up your day with joy...

How powerful would the tool of imagination be? Very powerful actually to come to think of it, i think i used it too much that i myself feel that i am crazy now. i always imagine how wonderful it could be.. IF... but the "if" never ever came true.. it was like always a one sided thinking.. somthing that i thought would happen and it turned out all wrong.. but i just keep thinking that way...And you might be thinking how the imaginiation has to do with what i siad above..

its actually because of my wishful thinking that caused me to get this kind of thinking which i never want to do but...

it was never that easy to not think that way.. it was just a part of me and i cant do anything to stop it...

if someone can make it all go away.. please do....